Thursday, December 31, 2009

Try.

So here I am sitting in front of my computer, with my final episodes of How I Met Your Mother finished, wondering what to do next. There are no shows on the television worth watching, and all the websites/blogs/youtube I surf usual are all maxed out. =S

I know. It's really sad that I am sitting here on New Year's Eve with nothing planned out.. The temptation is of course to start making a list of resolutions that I will never ever look at again nor achieve, but I shall not do that. I shall just sit here.......

Urgh. What do people do when they have nothing better to do?!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Wow. I am quite shocked that I am more upset than I imagined. =/

OG29 Gathering.

So it was our OG gathering yesterday! When I told Kaili that she was quite impressed that my first 3 months OG still met up. Hahas.. shows how tight we are eh!

I got to the meeting place late, only to learn that everyone was late anyways, so no harm! There was only Weiqi, Tiff and Julian there at first, and we had a late lunch at Just Acia in Dhoby Xchange for a looooong time, enjoying the free flow of drinks and ice-cream whilst we waited for everyone to arrive. Then came Chung Teck (rare!! I think since first 3 months..) and Shi Jia.

We then took another hour, I think to decide what to do before we finally decided to go explore PS. LOL! We ended up walking around Spotlight and Yamaha before going into Star Factory to look at others playing SF4. A totally strange itinerary for a gathering, but I guess we were very against the typical gathering mold of Lunch-Movie-Dinner-Bai!

For the lack of something to do, we ended up calling Jamie to ask if we could crash her place. Which turned out to be a good idea because her sister bought this KBOX set that was totally imba. WAHHHH. There was a touch screen selection monitor and it was totally like a KTV just more advanced. And that was how we sang until 11 plus and left.. Singing was fun!

Hmm. Come to think of it, it was really a strange gathering. But hey, we had fun, and I guess just meeting up was good enough already. =D

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And so it happens again. It happened in O levels, it happened in A levels, it happened during law interviews, and it's happened again. It doesn't matter how good your CCA record is, it doesn't matter how well you can articulate, it doesn't matter that you are actually passionate about what you want to get into. All that matters is that you have good grades.

I got rejected by USP.. I can't say that I wasn't disappointed. Because I was.. More so than when I got by horrible CAP score. Somehow something inside me told me that I was gonna get it since we had such an enjoyable interview. Well, I guess I should have known. I merely forgot that everything in our fine country is based on silly numbers. 6 points, 62 points, now CAP 5.

Oh wells, just got to suck it up and sock it to them next sem!

Monday, December 28, 2009

向肥胖宣战!

刚跑了3公里。虽然是很小的开始,但意义却是巨大的!我向肥胖宣战了!从今天开始,我将注意饮食运动,尽力把肚腩除掉!

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas!


First and foremost, merry and blessed Christmas to everyone! It's a time where we can remember to share and to love the ones around us and those that are less fortunate than us, and remember that we love because Christ first loved us. =)

I spent my Christmas Eve with Kaili and went for my very first Catholic midnight mass ever. Quite an experience! It was very ritualistic, and not at all like a Protestant service at all. Hmm. Honestly, it was quite a culture shock and I didn't feel as at ease as I expected. But it was an experience nonetheless. Kaili was right when she said that Catholics seem to revere and respect the Word of God and God Himself alot more. Everything was done with a bow, every reading was ended with a Thanks Be to God. It sort of reminded me of the traditional services that I attended back at KKMC, but to an even greater degree..

Anyways, I wrote ahead. The initial plan was to go for dinner at Food for Thought because I went there for Anntic gathering and found it to be quite cosy.. Unfortunately the place was closed when we got there, so we went to Purvis Street instead for Miss Clarity's. Hmm. To be honest I think their food quality worsened since the last time I went there.. The company made up for it though =)

Next on the list was supposed to be One George Street (thanks Rich!).. but once again, the place turned out to be closed =(( I was really bummed by that. Really wanted to go up there. Haix. But alas, plans are made to be foiled. We ended up going to the TCC nearby and chilling there while waiting for the mass to start. Which wasn't really a bad idea, because the bean bags were really really comfortable. Hahas..

Back to the mass! Thanks Camillus for hosting us! Your singing was really imba. There was this part where he basically summarised the bible leading up to the birth of Christ? I think there must be an official name for it, but I don't know what it is. Quite an eye opener really. Now instead of hearing about, I finally get a sense of what is Catholicism.

We went watching the sunrise after mass, and it was altogether fun =) And that was how I had my Christmas eve.

So dawn goes down to day, Nothing gold can stay.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I realised that as I become older, I have also become more afraid. Less cavalier and carefree. More afraid of being hurt, of being left behind, of making the wrong moves, of so many things! Perhaps it's the realisation that I no longer have much of my youth to squander, or that my past experiences have grown me wiser.

Somehow though, I wish I could be that person once again. That person who would have a crush on someone for 4 years. That person who could shout in the middle of nowhere. The person who did whatever he liked even though he knew that people would talk (thinks knitting in class in Primary 6. Hahahs!) Where did I go to? What's stopping me now?

Do I have more to lose now than before? I doubt so, since I might be less of myself now as compared to before. It's difficult to understand I guess. And I have yet to figure it out myself too.. Perhaps when the time comes, I would know.

12 gathers.

Anntic Group 12 gathering today!! Only Alex, Cheryl, Amos and Limmy turned up. But I guess it was relatively good since we spent all the way from 12 to 9pm out. Somehow we were just walking here and there and eating here and there, and before we knew it, we were all exhausted and wanting to go home =)

I realised that my stamina for going out is seriously waning. Fatigue gets to me by midday and I lose interest in almost everything except for a drink and a seat in some cafe so that I can laze around.. Must be the lack of exercise!

=S

Results were released today. And I am alright. I am definitely disappointed. But I have had enough of such disappointments to know that the best thing that I can possibly do is to suck it up and move on, and do better next time.

I was quite glad to be out when I got my results. I wonder what I would have done if I were at home. Mope? Probably turn on my stash of emo songs and start singing.. Or sleep.

Anyways, it was great for the youth to unite once again for lunch at Aston's today. Lunch was great, and I really missed the little lunches we had together to just hang out. I initially envisioned it to be an explaining session, but I think we just sort of mutually understood that we are all in different places now and that we will move on in our respective lives but remain closely knit as friends. Maybe Chee Keen is right. Perhaps a different setting is really better for us..

The DotA and L4D2 games were quite disastrous. I lost all the games because I sucked at them, and L4D2 hung on us halfway. I ended up feeling dizzy and like puking. =S Horrid.

The nasi lemak at the end made up for it though.. really good!

And I think that was enough adventure for one day. Super tired without knowing why. I didn't do much at all leh. Old liao, I guess..

Sunday, December 20, 2009

iPhone.

Hello blog, you'd not guess what happened today. I finally got myself an iPhone! Mum and I had to queue for about 4 hours for it because M1's was way packed with people, but we still got it. =D

Haven't had a chance to try it out though. I was told to charge it for a minimum of 8 hours so I have been faithfully waiting for 4am to come. COME, 4 AM!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Project XOXO.

I just completed the design for our VDay fundraising project. Check it out! The power of brushes =DD

This entry is dedicated to a certain Miss Oh.

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Friday, December 18, 2009

Avatar.

I think the worst is over in terms of my sickness. The headiness is totally gone, and I managed to hop out of bed today, which is much more than what I could yesterday. I'm just left with a very stuck nose and some coughing..

Anyways, the highlight of yesterday was watching Avatar the movie. I took a leap of faith there, considering the last time I stepped out of the house I broke out into cold sweat. Yes, it's that bad. But well, I turned out okay, and I survived!

Avatar wasn't half bad. Not the kind of movie that leaves you awed at the end of it, but you'd come out of it thinking that it was a good movie and that the plot was good, and that the director was really trying to address certain issues like indiscriminate deforestation, and how the Americans totally destroyed American Indian culture way way back.

I somehow came out of it feeling like a lot of parts of the movie was copied from somewhere though.. It felt a little bit like Pocahontas with Final Fantasy (the movie).. Not to mention that the 3D glasses made me a little dizzy after the movie. =S

Generally good though. Go watch it!

We had some time before the movie so we went walking near Somerset MRT a little bit. I must say, I never knew the place changed so much. Now there's a 313@Somerset and then there's an Orchard Central all full of shops. HOW DO THEY SURVIVE?! Anyways, the company was great =) and the Quiznos Sub was really not bad. Went a little crazy with the shopping too. It was fun! =D Let's do it again soon yeah? =P

Anyways, today seems like it's gonna be quite hectic. CLEARING OF RAG STORE! =S Wish us luck.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Alice in Wonderland.



Looks like a must-watch to me!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sick.

I was about to drive off for the evening service Tan Long invited me for when my head started spinning.. It was pretty scary really. Almost like the whole world was throbbing. I decided to U-turn in the end to get back before some accident happened. When I got out of the car, I broke into cold sweat and I was really dizzy. Looks like I'm sick....

Is this God's will? I thought of going for the service after talking to Chee Keen yesterday and deciding that it wouldn't do any harm to just go check it out even if I had reservations about Tan Long being so overtly enthusiastic. You see, I am on a quest to find my convictions and beliefs, so I am rather reluctant to plunge myself into a friend's church just because I know many people there. It might be a good start to my journey, but definitely not a destination in itself. Haix. But I guess it's difficult for people to understand. Somehow everyone just sees their own side of the story and their own picture in the whole story.

Anyways, I am feeling like crap now because my nose can't stop running and I feel clammy. Argh. HELP.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Rag Wind and Cloud!

The day more or less started with Rag meeting, since I was pangseh-ed upon by TYL for lunch =/ It seems like we still have a long way to go before anything concrete comes out from our Rag plans. I think things are gonna get scary as we approach Sem 2........

Anyways, we decided to go shopping at Orchard after Rag meeting since Ah Kong came along with his car! =DD And so we went to Wheelock to look at books and all while waiting for the movie to start at 8.50.. I figured it was great too, since I was meeting Yen Chin at 7 and I could shop in the meantime.

Hmm.. The meeting with Yen Chin was good I guess. At least I had could talk to someone about what happened so that he could understand where I was coming from. To be honest, I don't know exactly where I would go from here.. So it's really just trusting God for direction and guidance!

Anyways, I eventually rejoined the guys to watch Feng Yun 2. If you are looking for a plot, this is definitely not a movie to watch. In fact, they barely spoke. Hahas.. But the graphics were great and the fighting was not bad either. I was quite impressed that the director managed to mimic quite a number of Hollywood effects.. We have progressed as Chinese Cinema! LOL.. Oh and neither Ekin Cheng nor Aaron Kwok aged a day since Feng Yun. Quite freaky! Which really reminds me that I have to start exercising!! Swimming tomorrow! ^ ^

There's one other thing I have been thinking about these past few days, but I guess I shan't say it out loud. Hmm.. Trusting God to do what's best!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Tired...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Left. Anntic.

I love the title I came up with for this post because it really summarises what happened this past week.

If you didn't already know, I went off to Melaka for VCF's Annual Teach-In Camp, or Anntic, for short. Attempts to blog about it would probably leave me very bored and tired because I have already written everything in my notebook. Also, I doubt my words here would do it the true justice it deserves. Suffice to say that I would definitely go for Anntic again next year, and that I learnt more that I ever expected. Melaka was lovely too and I bought a Mr Bean bear there to add to my tiny collection of bears =) If you want to stalk me, feel free to check out the photo album on Facebook =P

Then, of course, is what happened today. Suffice to say again, that I left. I think it turned out as amicably as it could have been. It wasn't easy, but it's done. And now I am officially without roof over my head, so to speak. But I trust that the Lord will provide, since He has led me to this decision..

One thing I have decided though, is not to follow my friends blindly anymore. I shall take this time to really seek out my convictions and truths as God intends for me... Pray for me if you read this yes? =D

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Have you ever had the thought of whether anyone would ever notice if you died the next day? I know most of you wouldn't and would use this chance to accuse me of being emo. But I just had this thought flash past my mind when I was at my grandma's eating dinner just now. I get such thoughts at times - so sue me.

I remember once sharing this thought with a friend of mine and her saying how she cried when she imagined what her friends would say at her funeral. Well, honestly I never thought that far. What would you say at my funeral? <- Tag please =P

Well, I seriously think that it wouldn't matter much if I died. Which is probably a bad thing because it means I haven't made a big enough impact with my life yet. Now, I just have to figure out exactly what to do...

Another Sunday.

Somehow it has become my most dreaded day of the week. Well, I still said nothing, even though I feel like I am close to it. I am giving myself up to the Watchnight Service to settle things once and for all.. although I am pretty sure it would be faster than that.
Another hectic day.

It all started with Anntic briefing in the morning back in NUS after I slept for only 3 hours after Night Cycling.. We had an ice-breakers game try-out and there was a briefing as to what the Group Leaders are supposed to do for the camp. =/ Honestly speaking, I don't feel up to the task at this moment, mainly because of how tired I've been feeling. I want to just relac jack and sleeeeep!

I went back to nap for a bit after the briefing because I was really feeling damn shag. Then there was lanning with the guys at 4 pm followed by our long awaited dinner. Somehow I didn't really enjoy it even though the steak was to die for. Conversation was stifled at best, and it just wasn't interesting to me. =( I guess I get such days sometimes.

Then there was the W chalet over at Downtown East. I felt I couldn't not go because I've been missing so many class outings. I guess I have been sacrificing too much of my class time in Bizad Club whiling away. I shall devote more time to W next sem! Anyways, we had fun playing Saboteur.. Too bad I couldn't stay too long cos I still have to go to church early tomorrow morning.

I actually contemplated going back to school tonight to grab stuff from the clubroom, but I think driving in my state now would place me in mortal danger. SO I SHALL GO AND SLEEP NOW. Hopefully tomorrow gives me more time to breathe!

Saturday, December 05, 2009

And the fun begins!

It's been so long since I blogged! Exams have since ended, and I have been lazing around since Tuesday. Hmm. I would have to say the week was rather eventful....

Papers ended on Monday with Management Science and Stats. YAY!

On Tuesday I decided to meet up with Tan Long and Ivan for lunch since I had nothing better to do, and Tan Long only had his Bio MCQ left. Somehow that meeting escalated to a gathering including Teckie and Chow. We went Aston-ing at Katong and played Mahjong at Tan Long's after. =DD

You know, when we were eating the vanilla eclair at All About Fries, I suddenly realised why we lasted so long as a clique. We actually don't have to do anything at all to have fun. Simply just sitting down together is an ultra fun thing to do. Because each and every one of us is so screwed up and fun in our own way. LOL.

Did I mention I almost killed everyone by making a right turn when there was an oncoming lorry? Right after that turn, I almost drove us into a BMW too.. BUT BECAUSE OF MY L33T DRIVING SKILLS, WE SURVIVED!!!

Mahjong was great too. Haven't played it for the longest time!! Hahas.. I think that was a good start to the hols eh!

The glitch only came when we went to Siglap Centre for dinner at KFC and I drove my car up a kerb =S The plastic came off from the bottom of the car, and I had to have it replaced the following day. Now, I didn't know it was only a minor thing that day, so I felt pretty much screwed up the whole night =/ It was at KFC where I realised how much a simple call can brighten up your day. =D

I ended up dragging the plastic all the way from Bedok to Serangoon, where I went to borrow a pair of scissors to cut it off. Thanks you!

So.. That was Day ONE of the holidays

Day TWO was basically just spent on going to AutoBay to replace the plastic cover under the car and eating at PP. We went playing Left4Dead2 after picking up my car. It's fun! The addition of the melee weapons really makes the game more fun and additions like the puke bomb and defibrillator made everything more interesting. Thumbs up for L4D!!

Anyways, I went back to school hoping to have dinner with someone, but well, that didn't happen. So I went on a bingeing trip with Yi-Lin instead at Vivo. AND WE SAW FIREWORKS!!! And super brilliant ones at that. Apparently it was to celebrate Vivo's 3rd anniversary. Wahhhh. Really really great. The food was good too, although I think we ordered a little too much for our own good and I had to wolf down most of it. =S

I took the chance to PageOne to buy some books too, to quell my boredom during the hols eh!

I don't actually remember what I did on Thursday, but I do remember clearing out my room... OH! I went back to school to clear my room and then to wait for the others to finish their exams. Then we went Vivo again for dinner and gift shopping. HAPPY BIRTHDAY OH KAI LI!! Hope you liked your presents eh? We celebrated her birthday at Clinic E in Clarke Quay and then spent the rest of the night playing 4 Kings. I think the plan was to go to Zirca since it was free, but it turned out that everyone was too shag from mugging to want to club =S By the end of the night, my contact lenses were literally fdry. LOL. But I made it back home in one piece.

Friday was NIGHT CYCLING DAY!!!! It rocked, really. The distance was just nice, and the food stops were great without becoming too heavy. The weather was great too: windy and not too humid. FUN FUN FUN! Thanks Kenneth for organising! Now I have busted quads and an aching butt, but it was all worth it =) We totally pwned the mega slope at Bedok. LOL.

Today? Just came back from the Anntic GL briefing from school, and I think Imma take a nap before heading out for dinner with the guys. NIGHTS~!

Monday, November 30, 2009

Life?

Life is like travelling to different countries.

Each time you go to a particular country, you bring what you have with you, and gain what culture that country offers. With the travel comes the baggage that you carry with you. With each new country comes new things that you pick up.

And sometimes your luggage gets lost in transit as you travel from one country to the next. What was once familiar and dear to you gets lost in the mysterious vortex that is the airport's luggage handling system. And new things replace those that were lost.

At times, you'd see things that remind you of things that you lost. Yet remember that what you see is not what you had, and remember too, that this feeling of nostalgia is God's way of telling you to be thankful of what we once had and what you have now.

So, even as you gather more baggage and lose some without noticing, remember to enjoy the trip and the country!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Okay, so I just slept, ate loads of my comfort food (McDonald's) and read Claire's book for about an hour. TIME FOR MANAGEMENT SCIENCE!

Can't wait for Monday to be over! And I hope I don't get back my results until very much later =S

MKT1003...

was quite bad.

All I want to do now is sleepppp.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Don't really like the way I'm feeling =/

WAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUPWAKEUP!
You know, I can see the half-moon right here in the Bizad Clubroom from the small windows at the top of the whiteboard. Times like this, I wish I had my camera with me. Unfortunately it's sitting comfortably at home =S

Studying for Marketing is getting boring because of the sheer amount of content I have to cram into this tiny little head of mine. Despite it being interesting, I am really starting to think it's a total bitch. Which is bad, because I was thinking of specialising in it. Tough luck!

It's an odd hour in the morning and I am getting a lot of random thoughts in my head. I've been getting these random thought attacks a lot lately. I guess it's a sign that I am starting to get old. Too much things up in this ole head of mine and looking for places to come out from.

Okay, I think I started this post with something to say, but now I really can't remember what. Grr. Really starting to feel a little tired. Maybe I should sleep.. BUT STILL GOT 5 CHAPTERS!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I stared at this screen for a long time because I didn't really know what I could write and what I cannot.

Just felt like blogging because this has always been my way of letting off random thoughts in my head. Yet as has happened many times before, I find myself unable to write out what I want to write...

Bleh. Forget it.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

examsss

It was the start of the examinations for me today. I had an Economics Paper in the morning and Nation Building in the evening.

Was it difficult you ask? I honestly can't tell.. Economics was discriminating. I wouldn't say it was tough, but it wasn't easy either. I have no idea how I would do..

I breezed through Nation Building though. But such modules are subjective in a way and I won't know until I get my results. =/

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

11:28 hrs
Plunk! Just landed at WCP's Starbucks. Memory flashes. Crap.

11:33 hrs
Grande Mocha Frap!

12:32 hrs
OMG. Tan Long just reminded me that I was supposed to be aiming for Dean's List. =S

14:12 hrs
HUNGER.

14:26 hrs
Lunch. NAO.

15:26 hrs
Back! Feel like napping.. MUG.

15:44 hrs
Itchy.

16:45 hrs
Nice song by David Cook!


17:36 hrs
Readings reading is taking too much time. BRING ON THE NOTES!

Monday, November 23, 2009

Swam 30 laps!

Was going to go to MPSH to wish people good luck, but the bus was swamped. So I went swimming instead =)) This time it was really having the whole pool to myself. Had to ask the lifeguard whether the pool was open because it was raining previously.

Feel thinner now =DD Oh.. Coincidentally I was talking about this with Ma and Sis on Saturday. About how my Sis no longer has an alert system of feeling fat. So I guess all this feeling fat thing is good for me! =P Hopefully my Sis can find it within her to feel fat again.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Compilation of thoughts from a day alone in school.


17:20 hrs
I feel weird.

17:47 hrs
Came to NUS intending to do my Nation Building revision, only to realise that most of my notes for the subject is back in PGP =( Looks like I'd be doing Marketing instead.

18:19 hrs
Marketing Intelligence. If only it could diffuse into my brain!

19:06 hrs
Distracted distracted!

19:09 hrs
蒲公英的约定 is playing. I'm reminded of Taiwan =/ Miss climbing mountains and trekking in tangerine farms. Miss the wide sky and the fresh air. Miss the cracked paths after an earthquake. Sia lah. I should have been a cheong sua peng.

19:28 hrs
McDonald's!

20:20 hrs
90 minutes and 29 seconds to finish one chapter on Marketing Intelligence? Nonsense!

20:26 hrs
Now for Consumer Behaviourrrr!

21:11 hrs
MERRRRRRR!

22:02 hrs
"The need can be triggered by internal stimuli when one of the person's normal needs - hunger, thirst, SEX....." Wah. My Marketing textbook is so kinky!

22:14 hrs
Okay. I think I will go back to PGP... hopefully I'm more productive there with the foreign student auras!!!! >.<

Saturday, November 21, 2009

A plan.

If everything goes according to plan, this is what I am going to do tomorrow:

Go church.
Go to NUS.
MUG.
Go swimming.
Come back and mug some more in the Clubroom.
Sleep.

Oh, did I mention I got the USP interview? It's going to be next Monday. -fingers crossed- =S

Friday, November 20, 2009

Reminded.



I just came back from my duty for Coffee@Biz. We had the good fortune of Prof Hum stopping by to talk to us for a bit and here are some of my takeaways. Inspiration for mugging =D

"Steal time away from the time wasted"

He was basically talking about how grades are not everything, even though it is important to get you to where you want to be. Grades get us to the door, but it is us and our experiences that get us through it. And how do we balance study with our extra activities? By using the time we could have wasted. Like all the time I have been spending on Facebook or time that has been spent sleeping.

Sounds like a wake-up call to me. I got reminded of what David Lehman talked about during the Zoe Film Fest. Idealistic as it may seem, these are really the most important things in life. Altruism? Perhaps. But should we really waste our life being focused on such temporal things as grades?

Prof Hum also recommended a book which I googled to be "Good Value: Reflections on Money, Morality and an Uncertain World" by Mr Stephen Green, the Chairman of HSBC. It is supposed to be a book on how Capitalism in itself can be used as a tool for good and how morality still has a place in our society that's increasingly materialistic. A good read if I ever find the time, no doubt.

Altogether fruitful!! Now back to Marketing Environment. =DD

Thursday, November 19, 2009

New hair!

It's the little things that matter in life after all.

Zoe.

I crashed the MNO1001 Zoe Project Film Festival tonight with Kai Li, Cam, Sharon and Zhitong.

I wouldn't say I was particularly impacted by any video per se, but somehow the whole event made me think to myself: what am I doing with my life? Do I really want to look back when I get older and panic because I realise I haven't done much?

It's time to wake up and figure out before its too late.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I am getting that feeling of wanting to blog in music again.

If I could choose my exact gifts, I wish I were a music maestro and that I would be able to blog music XD There are just some things that cannot be expressed with words. Sadly I know I am not talented in this area. After so many years of learning, I am clumsy at best and I cannot even imagine composing..

We went watching (alliteration!) the Leonid meteor shower at the Mochtar Riady Building just now. I didn't get to see anything! =(( It was exciting to get up to the roof though =D

Monday, November 16, 2009

I went to NUH for the first time today since RQ passed away...

It was to visit Boon Loong who had water retention in his legs. I guess I never really dealt with the fact but closed it together with my Army chapter. Walking back to the same places and corridors I walked months ago somehow dragged up a lot of things I'd rather not think about.

I guess I am really getting old. Haix. I need a rest.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Keep Walking.

I reached the bus stop only to find that the last 853 had left. On a whim, I decided to walk home from Serangoon. Two and a half hours later, here I am, hardly feeling my legs, blogging. I never thought that lousy pair of Everbest would survive, but apparently it's still in fine condition. Wow.

By the time it hit about 2 am, my feet were so tired that I resorted to smsing people to divert my attention away from walking. Unfortunately I think no one was awake to reply me except for Diane...

Did you know that there was path going down a canal near Khatib? But it was really more of in the middle of nowhere because it was too far to walk to and there would be no place to park by the roadside since it was so near to the CTE exit.

I got to see a train carriage maintaining the track too. Cool stuff!

Remind me not to do this again eh?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

How about!


I am in need of a good romance comedy. =/

Monday, November 09, 2009

Swam today again! It was with Ben Cai this time because he wanted to move around abit and I wanted to lose weight. LOL!

20 laps!

LOSE WEIGHT FTW TTPOD!

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Today is one of those horrible days where I feel increasingly merrr and finally decide to screw the world and sleep.

Argh.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

Friday, November 06, 2009

SWAM! I feel thinner already =) Did 40 laps with 5 sprints. Don't think can run marathon yet leh. Still got a lot of blubber. MERRRR!

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Oh happy day!

I took the time to relax quite a lot today because I felt so stressed last night from the Nation Building test! Went only for the Econs lecture on Game Theory =) me lubs it! Satisfaction comes from being able to understand something being taught. Hahas..

We had some photobooth fun at the clubroom!

Mum and Maltesers!

Group shot!

Today was great. =))

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

The cow returns to graze.



EMOOO.
I have decided. Cards have been bought, and my heart has to be hardened for a time. I still can't imagine what it would be like, but it would be something I have to do.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

The Saltwater Room.

Another song that's I've been hooked on =)

There's something about the guitar intro that gets me. Hmm.. Feels almost Corrinne May-like. I AM SO BUYING THE CD!



I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights, when we count all the ship lights
I guess I'll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn out all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time.

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time

我只在乎你

I had this song stuck in my head when I woke up today. Must be too much hokkien songs yesterday. Hahas.. Anyways, I found this clip in YouTube and found it quite cute. Chinese FFX-2? Must share!

Nation Building.

SS test is on Wednesday!!

I think I spent most of today rather distracted because I partly didn't want to get down to actually studying. Merrr.

I have a gigantic stack to clear before the test and I am totally not looking forward to it. Someone help me!

Anyways, today was totally not well-spent, and I should have just holed up in the library myself to mug. Blehness! I think I shall do that tomorrow.. MUG MUG MUG!

Sunday, November 01, 2009

BINGE!

It's been a binge-out weekend! We went to Hanabi Japanese Buffet at King's Arcade on Saturday to have FOP cohesion cos Ben Cai has a large discount from his pseudo girlfriend there =)

The road there was really scary because the sky was literally emptying out and visibility was zero. I couldn't see a thing even with my headlights on and I had to go really really slowly because my brakes were not working so well with so much surface runoff. =S Add the random thunder and lightning to that, and I felt as if we were in some Hollywood show like The Perfect Storm or War of the Worlds or something..

We finally did get there in one piece though! The food was not bad, but really, after the first half an hour, you can't really savour what's going down your throat. We had lots of fun playing cai quan and zhong ji mi ma to stuff food down each other's throats and crapping about nipples and xi hum zhap. LOL!

Team FAB! + Ben Cai later decided to go to Serangoon Gardens for Ice3 because we were bored and wanted to HTHT. Team FAB! To think we would be reunited at FOP eh! Time passed so fast after election that I hardly had time to breathe and keep up with my work. It's good that we can take some time off for ice-cream =)

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I went to another dimsum buffet for lunch today at Excelsior Hotel to celebrate Chai Kee's 21st. Ended up feeling pregnant and like shit because I ate too much. We were trying to stuff ourselves because there was a charge for food wastage. =( I ended up going to the toilet to try to pee and shit to clear some stuff out of my system. BLEHH! And that is why I OFFICIALLY HATE BUFFETS NOW!

It was nice hanging out with KRT again though. Even though I felt totally out because I didn't know any of the people coming out of Jori, Gracia and Conrad's mouths. Felt like I missed out some part of me by not joining kayaking again. =/ Then again, I think I gained great friends in Bizad Club too.. So I guess it reinforces the fact that something's gotta give eh!

It was really malu when I was on my way home because I got stuck at the carpark gantry cos my cashcard didn't have sufficient value. 6 bucks for parking there for 3 hours?! OMG. I think I will never park in the CBD ever again in my life! An old uncle had to rescue me by opening the gantry for me and topping up my cashcard. Thank you uncle!

Alrights. Now for my nice shower and going back to PGP. Tsk.. TEST NEXT WEEK!

High Definition Drama.

So it seems that chaos ensued at home while I was in school this week, and I was back home to witness the aftermath of the fallout.

It all happened when my dad decided that he has too much money and time on his hands, and bought a 52-inch Sony Bravia television. Well, I guess that's alright, since I myself like to buy things.

The problem comes when he decided that he would use his two sons for cheap labour to dispose of the old television, which by the way, weighs a ton. That again, would be alright, if one of his sons weren't not talking to him for more than half a year now, and the other not having exams in three weeks time.

It was horrible to come back and listen to him try to arm-twist me into sending that tube to my uncle's place because he always thinks that his junk will be everyone else's treasure. Personally I wasn't that affected since it was not entirely out of character. I was just puzzled at why he had to have his way so quickly. Can't the thing stay there for a few more weeks? Or couldn't he have asked nicely and listened to what our limitations were?

It seems like the best solution to the problem is still just steering clear and living our own lives in separate compartments of the same space. Can't wait to get back to school!

Friday, October 30, 2009

There's something about this photo that is really... captivating.

A 19 year old goldfish.

First of all, HAPPY BRITHDAY TAN YI-LIN! Fellow Peter-Panner, cheer leader, Team Fab!-er and MC-er!

It's always great to be 19 because you're not a girl, not yet a woman, in other words, Britney Spears. Enjoy your day and your year because before you know it, you won't be a teenager anymore and life will start speeding up into adulthood with sublime responsibilities you have to undertake. Slow down and smell the flowers because the journey is more important than the destination. Don't be in a hurry to grow up because right where you are always the best place to be.

May *ahem* fall for you and you guys have a happily ever after =D AND MAY WE WIN RAG NEXT YEAR!!!! You better spend more birthday wishes on that arh! Stay above the fray and stay true to your heart.

HAPPY 19th!!! =)

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Okay! Now that that's done, it's back to bitching about schoolwork. Marketing project is finally going to be finished today. I think it's safe to say that everyone dreaded it because of the high amounts of information in Chinese we had to go through in order to do our report. I personally think we did it quite alright. I hope that Tanaka thinks so too. -Fingers crossed!-

On other news, I'm still struggling with settling down to study. I always get caught up in this and that and end up not doing anything for the whole day. It's a real bitch. Argh. Really need to go into the wilderness and find my drive again.

DEAN'S LIST LEH!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

It was a frustrating day for me because I was so determined to complete most of my work today, but got stuck at it for more than half a day. Mind Your Own BizNUS was only just out, and my marketing project is still left in the dust. I would really like to blame the lousy internet connection, but it is more likely just me. =(

I haven't been feeling in the best of moods this whole week, and I guess it's starting to show. I need something to perk me up! Hopefully hard work would be therapeutic enough to cheer me up..

Lock and Key.

Time to go back to studies, to work, to troubles, to life.

The finals are in 3 weeks and I have my very first test coming next week on 4th November. Time will never be enough, and staring at the screen is no longer an option. Be strong, Mr Suan! Let's pwn the dean's list's ass.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Bloop bloop.

I think I was a fish in my previous life! Oh wait, I don't believe in reincarnation. Hmm. Just did 20 laps in the pool this morning! I feel thin =D

Using the free pool everyday was part of the plan when I first moved into PGP. So was mugging every darn day too. Then Bizad Club came along and my priorities shifted slightly, and I became a perma Clubroom resident, and somehow I lost that wanting to exercise and mug.. =(

So here I am, discovering it again. Hopefully this lasts!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Looks like I still can't run away from your shadow. Thinking back it was probably a grave I dug for myself there.. Oh wells, I'm just going to take it slow and casual. Reaaaaal slow.
Life is like reading books.

There are times when you pick up a good one, and you really wish that you could read it forever, and when it finally ends, there's a reluctance to put it down.

The things that the book has impressed or taught might have been amazing and eye-opening. At times, it might even have shaped the life that you have now, or the world-view that you have. But the book still comes to at end.

I'm learning how to put that book down and let the characters slide. It's not an easy thing to do, but it's what I believe it's what I have to do. I just wish I won't hurt people in the process.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Use Somebody


I'm starting to like the rock version more that the Ana Free version I always espouse...
I went kayaking with Wei Lun and Jun Kai and ahem! Zoey after piano lesson just now. Just like old times!

It felt really good to be able to kayak after sooooooo long. For once I took on a K1 without any capsize! We went all the way out to Marina Barrage and got whistled at by security. Afterwhich we went to the Singapore Flyer. Wei Lun wanted to go up to the Merlion, but the combined wisdom of Jun Kai and me convinced him to go back before we get towed away by the PCG or something.

I have said this before, but there is really something about kayaking and the water that calms me. Perhaps more in a T1 because I don't have to worry about balance, but being out there and seeing the city from another perspective with the wind blowing in your face is quite something. Being able to go to Marina Barrage by boat is something that I bet not anyone can experience! The irony is that I have never really been there by foot before. LOL.

It was kind of weird for Wei Lun I bet.. Even I got a little irked by the mushy things they were doing to each other. EEKS. But it was altogether very sweet lah. Awww. I want that too =) Too bad. =/

1:15:40!


I just came back from the Nike Human Race 10K. It was a route very similar to Stan Chart, but I stopped to walk quite a few times =( I think I am starting to get old and fat!

Some pointers I got from the race...
  1. Always shit before you run. I ended up running with stomachache..
  2. Tighten your laces before you run. I had quite abrasion on my feet and and painful knees
  3. Never wear dry-fit. It got dripping wet by the time I was done and it just felt really cold and horrible
  4. Eat something in the morning! I felt hungry when I was running. -sobs-
  5. Bring friends. It was quite lonesome to run alone =S
So yeah... There's that. I think I will restart my swimming regime again. Running kills my knees, but I really need to get fit again for 42K. Bleh!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

So. Mother's birthday turned out to be okay after all, even though I didn't get her anything. Sis bought her a Braun Buffel handbag, but from what I hear, she didn't like it too much. Was thinking of suggesting a day out shopping this Saturday. Think it's a good idea?

Anyways, let me fill you in about the dinner. We went to the new Chinese restaurant at Northpoint just to try it out. If my memory serves me well it is named Mayim. Well, the place pretty much specialises in Sichuan-styled dishes, but there were very weird elements, like how they gave us bad tasting peanuts and kimchi for appetisers. I was sorely disapppointed with the way they dealt with the cod fish too. It could have been so much better! Generally though, not bad for a place like Northpoint. We are becoming the next Ang Mo Kio! Way to go, Yishun! =P

Mum was pretty happy to hang out with us kids as we were talking nonsense like the different going rates for different services in Geylang and about my brother's SEP thingie. Better than I expected, frankly. Mum got a diarrhoea the immediate morning after though. Hmm.

Today was fun too. I spent most of the day lazing in the club room because I didn't feel like getting any work done, and we all went for the SEP talk. Which, by the way, was sorely disappointing. I thought there was actually going to be some kind of useful information shared. Not something I could have read off a website! Bummer.

After, Kai Li, Cam and I went to WCP for awfully sweet coffee. Bleh. Loved the pitchfork chairs though.. Too bad I didn't bring my camera, or I would have taken a photograph to share it with you guys. Lovely little place with orange lighting (love those!) and pretty light-shades.

Nigerian Girl was rather okay today too. At least I feel as if she is more prepared for her O levels next week. From PASS to at least a C I would think. Yay!

And now for some photos we took from Photo Booth!

Movie date tomorrow! =))

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Happy Birthday Mum!


It's Mother's birthday!!

With desperation I tried to google "good mum gifts". Unfortunately there was nothing concrete enough that I could buy within a couple of hours.

The best thing that I can think of is a Gucci wallet. But of course, that is quite out of reach and belongs only to my dream where I am actually cash-rich with excess even after I bought all the things I have ever wanted. Think Mini Cooper, iPhone, Saville Row suits...

Okae, I digress. This is supposed to be about Mum.

What do people get Mums in the first place? My mum is not one who craves branded items or wears jewellery. For so many years she has slogged so that we could get the best things. Like the MBP I am using, or the iPhone that my brother has, or all the food that my sister gets. Hmm.

I am very tempted to buy a wallet. But I have limited resources =( Necklace, but she doesn't really wear them. Clothes.... not really my thing to shop for my Mum. What what what??!

Maybe a card. Arghs. HELPPPPP!
I found my MBP charger!!!

More correctly, Camillus helped m to find my charger. Yayness! I was totally irritated and angry at having lost it and the prospect of buying a new one last night. Thank God I found it this morning =) That's a savings of $148.

It's been a relatively slow week so far since midterms are over. I did quite okay, in my opinion.. Now it's time to gear up for the finals =( Hopefully my steam would last til then.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Seeking.

I was relieved of my Chinese ministry duties today. Truth be told, I do not know yet what to make of it. Zi Jun said that it was because she didn't want the ministry to become one of the factors in my deciding whether to stay in church or to leave.

If you ask me, I am really still asking God to show me what I should do. With what has happened, I don't believe I can personally just carry on and pretend like everything is fine and dandy. I also realise that this is God's way of showing me that I would have to test what I believe in.

All these years, I have taken what has been taught and preached as truth without really consciously filtering what I believe in and all in a matter of weeks I am suddenly thrown in a circumstance where I have to decide, or realise, what exactly I am believing in. Is Christianity all about doing good as so many understand it? Or is it all about the Holy Spirit as others have preached?

I was confronted with the fact that I do not really know as much about my beliefs as I would like to admit. A fact that I intend to change. I can really only seek God to show me the way. Even if there are costs in following Him, even if there is opposition and misunderstanding..

He is no fool
who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose - Jim Eliot

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Beliefs.

Today's POTD is brought to you by Facebook! And because I'm feeling generous, there are 2 photos! More wholesome Mr Suan goodness for you =)

Teckie dropped by Bschool for lunch and a mugging session where he totally slept. Pretty amazing, considering how noisy Biz normally is..

Now, an interesting question he asked me for his philo tutorial:

"If you were fighting with your friend for the same internship spot, and suppose you had an edge over him, would you help him by all your means, or reserve some of your knowledge to yourself so that you can maintain your comparative advantage?"

My answer was a sound yes, that I would help that friend and let the interview decide who's the better between the 2 of us. Somehow he thought I was naive I guess. I later thought about it a bit more and realised that this is exactly what makes Christians different from others. We are all called to be salt and light of the world, to shine in the darkness and to preserve goodness. Even if I might be in business where one is taught to be shrewd and wise to the ways of the world, I will never want to give that up.

Interestingly, the VCF membership class this evening talked exactly about being salt and light of the world and influencing others for Christ in campus. I guess I still have a lot of work to do in that area since I have mostly kept my faith very personal.

Frankly it was rather refreshing to know VCF's doctrines and distinctives. It made me realise that it is actually quite important to really know what I believe in, and that it's also important for people as a corporate body to believe in the same things. In the light of recent events, I feel that perhaps that was overlooked when I was younger. It's probably a very good time to question myself rigorously about this!

More Clubroom love! =) I thought I looked too cute in this photo to pass up the opportunity to share it. =P

That's all for tonight! Earendil is dying without his charger. Tomorrow will be a brighter day!
Yes, you saw it right. Leopard preennsss!

The day was mostly spent solely on Yes We Care!, watching Gossip Girl and shopping for the presents for the birthday girls. What a wonderful use of time eh? And so that was how my free day was used up =(

Chairman, Cam and I went to Vivo to shop for the present mainly because I have been bitching about how school is depressing and boring and also because we had 3 girls in the MC with birthdays in October and we absolutely had to get them gifts before we were hounded down and killed.

Us being guys, we didn't really have any clue as to what to get for them, especially since they are such distinct individuals. We tried nonetheless and got them all stuff! But I cannot say what lah =X

Xumao got himself trousers and a tee from Zara. I totally approve of the bottoms, by the way. It looks really good. If I lived in Lentor Terrace, I would buy them myself =) I got myself a great looking vest as you can see in the photo =)) Sorry you didn't get anything Cam.. But I totally think you should get that top you picked out!

It was fun in the end, I guess. We had Diao Xiao Er for dinner and spent $25 each on skinny duck, lotus roots and a very fat pig trotter. URGH. I guess a night of indulgence is okae! Hahas..

Alright then, I should get to working. Ciao.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Good Morning Upper East Siders,

Mr Suan here, your one and only source into the lives of erm.. my own life.

So yesterday was quite bad.. I guess all the gloom talk and the bad weather got to me and I just acted in accordance to my feelings. I need to get out of the school compound for a breather before I suffocate under the similar surroundings. School gets quite boring really fast when the only moving things are people. Okay, maybe not, just that I need to get away from the busyness of everything and find my serenity in.. looking at things behind glass windows. LOL.

On other news, Issue 1 of Mind Your Own BizNUS has been launched! Read all about it here. I am terribly proud of it because I haven't done a full HTML script since the longest time. Maybe since Sec 4? The fact that one of my KPI is fulfilled is cool too =)

You know you love me!

xoxo
Mr Suan

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Moon River.


The song Moon River from Breakfast at Tiffany's. Best movie ever!

This song also happens to be my mother's favourite song, back when my parents sat down together in the living room listening to Frank Sinatra together. My dad's favourite was New York, New York.

Wistful mood today, it seems..

Studies.

I just finished a long overdue session of listening to Fu Qiang's webcast lecture and I am finally feeling a little bit of accomplishment from knowing what exactly I am studying. I know full well that the past few weeks and the midterms were below my personal expectations and I am really trying to claw my way back into the mood of studying again. I guess I can't really blame anything or anyone but myself for being so distracted lately.

I got back my Stats results today. A meagre 19 upon 25 which puts me below the 50th percentile in the whole Stats tutorial class. Absolutely disgusting, Dezhi. What in the world are you doing? Right now I am just waiting for the results for Management Science and I would more or less have a fuller picture of what my CAP would be like. Hopefully Project Become-A-Genius-In-6-Weeks would actually work within the next 6 weeks...

If there is something I have learnt in these past weeks, it's that no one else is responsible for your learning, and that you really can choose your choices. You can even choose how you would want to feel to certain situations or circumstances in your life. I allowed that whole drama to affect me too much and consequently everything went awry. Yet I just take a look around, I would be able to see so many other people who have things going on in their lives as well, but are doing much better than me. A lesson in humility and in self-control is in order, it seems.

That said, I am still trying to find my path in University. I am finally starting to feel like I can integrate into all these and take my work seriously. I am also starting to feel more "formed" as a person as I see where my priorities lie, where my strengths are and what my beliefs are. Isn't it wonderful how God puts all things together in such brilliant clarity when just the year before I was looking for my direction? Trusting God to lead me in ways everlasting!

Alrights. I think I have typed enough. I should probably sleep or risk missing my subject pool tomorrow. Until the next typing diarrhoea!

xoxo

Monday, October 12, 2009

Kai Li the waitress!
Good morning, people! Finally a day that doesn't start with a heavy heart. =) I think today will be just fantabulous, don't you!

Lectures are starting again, which means I wouldn't feel that I am slacking around all the time. I haven't caught up with all my work yet, but I am quite determined to work it! This week marks the start of the Yes We Care! campaign. Hopefully everything would rock~~~!

Okay. GOTTA GO MUG!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I feel like I am ready to let go.

Thursday, October 08, 2009

The ice melts.

I came to the sudden realisation that the Finals are coming in 6 weeks time. Enough enjoying the joy of getting full marks for Econs or lamenting the fact that I might not do as well for MS or Stats. Finals are coming!

I really need to find it within me to start mugging seriously, and activate that old sponge in my head. ABSORB YOU TWIT!

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

四连拍!


I was left alone in the Clubroom for a while. Thankfully the seniors came in and we photoboothed! =DD

I spent today teaching tuition and then getting back. LOL!

So unproductive lorhs. I need to mug harder! On other news, somebody got full marks for Econs! =) I know I will die for MS and Stats, but this is my momentary bliss. So I am totally enjoying it! Yayness!

Hmmm. I really feel like shopping.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Hello world!

Today is a better day because I JUST CAUGHT A HYDRA WITH BLUEPRINTS!

19:00
I checked my trap and found that I had caught a mouse! I caught a 7 oz. Hydra mouse from the Lagoon worth 9,634 points and 5,767 gold.

The mouse also dropped the following loot:
1 Ship Blueprints, 6 Splintered Woods, 1 Rope.

Thank you God! =)

On other matters, Kai Li and Nick were kind enough to be my sounding board this afternoon and I feel so much better just letting everything out of my chest. It wasn't as screamy and dramatic as I imagined it in my head, but it sufficed..

I could really see the points that Nick was making. I guess this season is really a time of testing for me as well. I would have to learn to rely on God more and not do things on my own strength.

I just really pray that I can get out of this unscathed.

One rock removed.

4 gigantic pimples are forming on my face. Such that I have to hide them behind my camera =(

Midterms has ended today! Stats paper was.. I wouldn't say tough, but challenging. There were some tricky parts that I couldn't get. Hope for the best!

At least that was one source of stress removed. Now I just have to deal with the rest of the stuff. Argh. Angst!

Sunday, October 04, 2009

You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

Some things happened at the end of this past week that devastated me. I don't think there's a need to put up a front in my own blog, so I'll just say it. It hurts, and it's really disappointing. I would think more so for the people concerned... In fact, if I could cry out without people staring at me, I would.

I just never knew that things would come to this. All along I guess I have maintained some kind of naive thinking that that part of my life would be devoid of such nonsense. Turns out that that's never the case. Shit is just waiting for your face so that it can hit it at full force. LOL.

I HATE POLITICS!

But still I must remember that God is still in control. Yes. He's still on His throne, whatever happens. And we must all be accountable to Him in the end.

Look's like there's going to be a premature ending to this chapter of my life. Haix..

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - 1 Corinthians 13:13

Friday, October 02, 2009

FML.

I am starting to get really worried. Midterms I can deal with. But a C+ for Marketing tutorial?! This means I have to ace the group assignment and ace the final years exams to climb back up.

OMG. Why do bad things happen at the same time? FML.

Thursday, October 01, 2009



No photo today, but I have a desktop wallpaper! Created this during Stats lecture because I was starting to doze off.

I REALLY NEED TO MUG!

And the added stress is not doing me any good. Urghs.

Heal Over by KT Tunstall



It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday

-

Did I mention that KT was one of my favourite singers? She still is. Love her voice and how relaxed her music is.

I guess one day I'll heal over too.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The beginning of knowledge.

A serious man is a handsome man. =D I think i look totally shuai in this photograph. LOL.

On a more serious note, I think I can't finish my econs revision by today. =( I am still at Indifference Curves, which means I still have Production and Cost to cover on top of doing all the tutorials again just to make sure I understand my concepts. These past two tutorials had me scratching my head because I didn't really know how to apply what I read to the questions. Hopefully Fu Qiang sets an okae paper that I can score in!

The photo of the day could have been a beautiful moon tonight, but I didn't have my camera with me. So here's a substitute and a reminder for myself to mug harder!

I was planning on running today too, but it seems like the wrong time. I shall go swim tomorrow morning! - that is if I wake up in time.. Perhaps it's time to revive that training log of mine eh? Hahas.

Mug. Mug.

Soo.. today is mugging day. I've been spending my whole day with David Besanko and Ronald Braeutigam (your name's hard to pronounce by the way!) on Microeconomics. Urgh..

Whole day sounds really long, but it really only started from 2 pm. LOL. Because I stayed up until 5 am to mug with Cam and Jaslyn, I decided to sleep in. Just didn't know that I would sleep in till that late. -_-||

I don't seem to have any inspiration today to take any photo. So I think the photo a day attempt has failed for today. Not unless I can find something to post later. =(

Aim of the day: FINISH BSP1005 AND START STATS! Go go fighting!

Yes, this is kind of gay. After our daily studying (my creating of newsletter) stint in the Bizad Clubroom, we decided to go back to PGP to mug. I appeared in similar clothes as Xumao after I showered. LOL. Gay buds ftw!

It totally wasn't planned! Somehow we were just both wearing the OCS white shorts and a black singlet. Hahas. So I decided that this should be the photo of the day and whipped out my MBP to take a PhotoBooth shot. Muahahahas.

Anyways, today was pretty boring with Marketing and SS lectures. I miss Dr Sai Siew Min =/ Somehow I like her SS lectures more. Sobs.

Oh oh! I finished creating the Bizad newsletter today and it's called BIZNUS! A pun on Business, obviously. And I am totally in love with my own creation. LOL. TAKE A LOOK:
ULTIMATE CHIONESS right? Hehs.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I <3 Bizad.

TYL wasn't in the house today, so it was just Jas, me and the seniors! Not that I was studying at all.. Just relaxing after DSC2003 midterms. It was easy! But I think I got one of the questions wrong. Which means.. die!

The day was alright. Quite uneventful, in fact. I am just glad that one of the tests are over, and that I finished doing the organisational chart. That means two things struck off my list! Yayness!

I wonder what I should do tomorroww...

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Oh take me back to the start...



Why are there people reading my blog from the US? And it's not just from Cornell University. It's from Chicago and Kansas! Makes me feel a little weirded out. I guess I ignorantly thought that this was my little space to blog as I will. -shrugs-

I decided to post an emo song anyways, mainly because I am taking a break from studying about Sensitivity Analysis. It's The Scientist by Coldplay. A very old song, but still almost new to me.

If you have a chance, watch their official MTV on YouTube. It's pretty cool how everything is filmed in rewind. I want to learn how to do that!

Oh huuuuuu huuuu huuuu huuu huuuuu.
Ah huuuuuu huuuu huuuu huuu huuuuu..

Mr Suan's Version of A Photo A Day!


I wanted to post 吴克群‘s 爱太痛 for this post, but I decided it was too emo and would only serve to depress me further. So instead, I decided to post this photograph Rich took on my birthday dinner at Timbre@Substation!

If I remember correctly the swirling lights was the tiny electric candle they had on the tables. The last time I went, they didn't even have those anymore. I guess customers are assumed know to bring night vision goggles!

This photo was stolen from Rich's Facebook album. I did some photoshopping to make it look more interesting and to make the swirls glow more. Generally I like it! =) I guess I am more of the overphotoshopper. LOL.

Management Science midterms is tomorrow!! Hope I can finish everything by tonight..!

I've got a feeling.

Mousehunt is undergoing maintenance, and I am quite sick of TRYING to study, so here's some blogging!

It's Chee Keen's birthday today (HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE KEEN!) so we kind of celebrated a little for him with a cake in church. Yays! Chocolate cake! I kinda chose it so I could eat it. LOL.

I am looking at Chor Seng's Photo a Day and thinking of starting the same thing. In fact, there are quite a number of people on Facebook doing photo-journalling by posting a photo a day. Most of which is quite emo - but that's besides the point. If I do succeed, i.e. overcome the laziness to upload photos every day, you'd see more posts and photos!

Anyways, the midterms will start tomorrow, and I still don't feel totally prepared for it. Looks like the Army syndrome is not that easy to get rid of. I don't feel like I am studying in Uni at all! Feels more like work. And I have a tendency to not bring work home. Hahas. That's a big problem for me. Been sleeping and eating this whole weekend and doing scarcely anything productive. Arghs!

Hopefully tomorrow's gonna be a good day. Speaking of which, watch this! It's totally awesome pawsome! It's on Facebook so I can't embed it. But really. WATCH IT.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I cut my hair!

If there's one thing that Buddhist monks got right, it's that hair is an annoying piece of accessory the human can do without. Hmm.. typing that made me wonder why Buddha didn't cut his hair but left it long..

Anyways! I feel much better without hair peeking at the borders of my vision and hair weighing me down. And the fact that I didn't get a very expensive one too! Thank God I didn't go for REDS. Hahas.

Lesson turned out okay. I think Ms Goh was contented for me to pass only. LOL. And I told her that I probably wouldn't want to take exams again until.. next year? There's just no time to practise lately. Merr!

Friday, September 25, 2009

PASS.

YES I PASSED!

I know it's probably pity and mercy on the part of the tester, but it's still a good feeling to know that I didn't throw money into the drain.

I don't think I would want t hazard another exam any time soon. At least not when I am in Bizad Club. Hahas. Time is so precious now, I would buy it if I could.

Recess week is quickly coming to an end and I feel as if I didn't have the week at all. Studies are lagging behind and the general sense of assurance is just not there. I NEED TO STUDY!!!

You know, when you find studying therapeutic, you know something is wrong.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

You Found Me



I guess it's evident enough that I haven't been in the best of moods lately. I just need to get stuff off my chest but there's nowhere to dump it to but here..

Heard this song when we were at Timbre@Substation for Yishin's farewell dinner. Have fun in England! Party hard and get loads of chicks! I think it's always a good idea to get an overseas education. The experience you gain would be priceless, not to mention the alternative culture that you get to experience. I'm jealous! I wish I had the money to study overseas too =/ Mer!

Frankly speaking, I'm not sure why I have been feeling so down lately. I guess part of the reason is the stress. The workload is not such that I cannot handle, but enough that it irritates me to no end.

I really hope tomorrow is better than today =/

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Dark clouds gather.

A long time back, when I was in Primary School, my form teacher for P5 and P6 once said to us that the truest and best friends you would find would be from primary school. We were to therefore cherish the times we had with each other because even 6 years is not a long time.

I have found that what she said was only partially true. My longest and good friend is from primary school. But I believe my truest friends were met through my Secondary School days. Where else can you experience that degree of fun and closeness as we did things together in CCAs and had fun spoofing things and bitching around with each other, etc etc?

Even as I move on to varsity life, I feel like I am getting increasingly disenchanted with people relationships. Relationships seem to be based on utility - what we can get out of the other person - rather than a genuine care and concern, or even a desire to know the other person more. "HTHT" is just an excuse for the scandal making machine or a way to know your thoughts for whatever ends in the future. It's a dark, morbid, cynical thought. But I have come to see that this is closest to the truth. Of course, there are always exceptions to the rule. And I hope many exceptions, at that.

As Cheeks has said, maybe everything is just perspective and I am just having a negative perspective now. I certainly hope so.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Feeling much better once I saw that I could live without a vice. I guess it was the fact that I had to find one that stressed me out all along.

I'm missing a lot of things from the past. Busyness seems to have this effect on me. A gathering should be in order! And it's not just the clique that I miss...

Alas, things past are better left in memory. It's what makes them beautiful. And I will move on too. To wherever be.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Jesus Take the Wheel.



I was reading the lyrics for Jesus Take the Wheel when I saw the lyrics "and she saw both their lives flash before her eyes" when the memories of Tan Long flooded in.

"Saw his life flush past".

That was really a good one. Hahas. I can't really remember the last time I had fun. And I really miss the times we had fun just doing silly things. Like posing for an MTV in the swimming pool. Or deciding whether or not to hurl abuses at Hana. Or even just the many DotA sessions and arguing about which hero is stronger and what item does what.

Life is just not that great for me right now. And I know I will get out of it soon. Just need some time to breathe, catch up, forget about my lousy exam.. and everything will be alright.. I hope.

Jesus, take the wheel.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Wherefore art thou, Vice?

To be honest, I am still quite stressed over my lack of a Vice. Some part of me feels that the reason that I have no Vice is because I am a lousy person. I wish it were not so. And I know it's not the right thing to think or feel, but I can't help it.

This feeling of inadequacy is compounded with the fact that I screwed up my piano exams big time and that I am seriously behind for my studies =(

The piano exams was quite the disaster. Basically I was unnerved by the plain white CLAUSTROPHOBIC room and the silence of it all. Imagine all that you can hear is your own playing. That's really really scary. The angmohness of the angmoh didn't help at all. I just felt like an inferior piece of shit in an atas environment like Delfi Orchard. Man.

I don't think I am that suited for this exam thing.. I'm so much better off just learning and playing by myself. Why oh why did I let Ms Goh convince me otherwise? Haix.

Anyways, I should really get to working on my studies. Ciao.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Whatever works.

It's gonna be my piano exams tomorrow! I have been playing 3 pieces for one freaking year just for tomorrow, but I don't have the confidence that I can do well.

Why? Because I am a bloody slacker. =/ I don't practise as much as I would like, mainly because I have a complaining neighbour and a father who looks over my shoulders too much. Those might very well be excuses though..

These few days are less stressful as compared to last week, but I am still feeling an overarching sense of dread, mainly coming from the fact that I know I am slipping in my studies. Not exactly that I don't know how to do stuff, just that I feel like I am spending less and less time on it. I have to start regulating my life! Start putting my schoolwork first!

On other news, I am still having difficulty finding a vice-director for Digital Media and Publicity. I never knew that people with Photoshop skills or website maintenance skills were in such short supply. Now I do. Almost none of the people I know in Bizad knows how to use Photoshop. Those that do know feel too jaded and sian about it to want to pick it up as my Vice. Which of course, makes me a sad sad person. =(

Other than that, nothing much is bothering me, which is a good thing =) I just hope that the myriad of things that I have to do/attend to would lessen!

I feel generally tired these days, so I shan't banter further. Until next time!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Sleepless in NUS.

I never quite thought Chee Keen meant a life like this when he described University as "short but intense". Yet right now I am really living it.

I would describe it as "fast" instead of "short" though. It's already the end of Thursday when it seems like it was Monday just yesterday. Weeks have flown past without mercy and taken me on a wild ride without allowing me a moment for a breather.

I don't precisely remember if I mentioned being worried about my schoolwork. I guess it's not really worry per se. It's just the anxiety that comes with not being able to complete everything ahead of time like in JC or in Secondary School. Things in NUS come at the last minute, and I almost always finish just in time. It's horrible not to be able to "clear" anything. It is almost as if every minute is a busy one. Good if you are bored, bad if you are overworked.

Perhaps it's that time again to refocus on my priorities. I musn't let this tsunami of work overwhelm and conquer me. It's time to ride the waves to keep my head above the water!!

GO GO ME!
 
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