Saturday, January 31, 2009

I got reminded tonight of what I was thinking when I was on the plane back home from Brisbane. I was going to tell something to someone when I got back. Up until now, some 2 months later, I haven't. I think I wouldn't anymore, given the current circumstances. I guess I don't have to either, since what I was going to say, she already knows. Now, that perhaps, is the more infuriating thing. The fact that she knew (but how?!)..

Not so long ago, my lovely piano teacher (Ms Goh, not Eunice) related a moral lesson to me whilst guilting me into practising for my exams. I believe I started the topic by asking her how much she earned in a month. It somehow turned to why she didn't want to start taking private students and leave the school for good for greener pastures.

She gave the anecdote of being the third party in a relationship. She said that she didn't want to be the third party between the school and the student, like how one becomes a third party between a couple. She said that if a couple breaks up because you exist, it's because of you. If you never interfered, they would never have broken up. So don't even get involved. In the same way, she didn't want to take students away from the school. It was simply against her code.

It somehow made sense for me today. Hmm. Is it piano playing overload? Hahas..

Well, what all these really means is that I'm going to have a lot more space in my brain to think about other things. Starting with finding a job. Then getting my playing right. Then changing this hideous blog skin. Then getting my driver's license so I can driveee. Hm.. I think that's all for now!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I have been noticing some disturbing trends with regards to how my family relates to each other ever since I asked God to show me how I can be the change in my family.

The first thing that I notice is how negative we are towards each other. We like to criticise each other and say what thing each other is doing badly. And strangely, there was a weird morality in the air. Don't do that, that's wrong, etc. But really. Every one of us have our cranks but we don't seem to be able to correct ourselves.

There's also an impatience I feel. Like everything cannot wait, and everything gets on the nerves. An example was how my sister got very frustrated because she didn't get a taxi within 10 minutes after the reunion dinner.

Yen Chin told me to speak truth into their lives today as we were talking about my family and my dad. But I realised that it's more difficult than it seems. Simply because the view is so different from me and from any of them. Like how do I tell them to honour our parents because the bible says so when they don't even believe? It becomes sort of cyclic argument with no end. Argh.

I believe God will give me the wisdom to deal with what He has allowed me to see, I guess. I will watch and wait for the opportune time. And hopefully we would be more whole.. =/

Thursday, January 22, 2009

LV Damier Graphite Multiple Wallet


I have been looking for a suitable wallet for the longest of time since my current one is tattered beyond recognition. I'm thinking of something that is bigger, yet not traditionally black and boring like all the wallets I have seen so far. In my dire straits, I saw the Louis Vuitton Damier Graphite Multiple Wallet. Wahhhhhh..

This is more in the category of "dream wallet" since if I really buy it, I wouldn't have money to put into it. It's priced at SGD615. A bomb man.

If only I worked!

In with the new!

My Black Brown Vika Grevsta table just came from Ikea today. Yayness! I now have a huge table on which I can write stuff on. Hehs. I had to throw out a cupboard just to fit the table in the room, but it's like totally worth it. Even typing on the new table feels good! Hahas..

These few days have been spent spring cleaning and throwing out all the things that I probably will never use again. I realised that I kept so many things over the years from the past and then it really dawned on me that no matter how many things I keep, the past will never live again, you know. So I just started to dump all the stuff. All the old tickets, the paper cranes I used to fold, the sticker which I got when I bought jelly in primary school, so many things. It's funny how I can remember the exact scenarios in which I got the things. Hahas.. but hey, it's time to move on.

It was a horrid experience to have to clear so many things. I never knew we had that many things hidden all around the house until I actually took them out and put them into bags. We probably could have filled a MB290 with all the rubbish lorh. Thank God that's over!

So anyways, I went visiting RQ at the hospital just now. I am glad to see her in her happy self. It must be really painful. Heard from her maid that she has to take morphine now. Hang it there Ma'am! I've really been praying for her that a miracle can happen. Well. All we can do is hope. And I believe all things are possible with God.

On other matters, Obama just became America's 44th President! I think we are in for better things in the world. Let's all wait and see.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Comeback Kid

So long never blog le, it feels a little strange to try to think of something to write here. Not exactly that there's nothing to write, just that I'm at that stage where I don't feel like I want to tell people what I am thinking so that they can have preconceived notions about who I am. Do you ever get that?

It's like. Oh, so I read here that he's like that, and reacts as such, so he's always like that. It's like assuming that the temperature will be at 30 degrees Celsius all the time because it's like that at this moment. Or that the sun will rise again tomorrow because it has risen today. I refuse to be boxed up!

Of late, I have been staying home to help Ma out with the spring cleaning. It's starting to get a little boring, but everyone has started school or started work, so it's difficult to find someone to go out with. I still need to find my short shorts and plaited trousers and cardigan for CNY!

In my head I have also been thinking of how reality often differs from what I think. I think it's time to be less idealistic? Be more down to earth. Yeah..

Did I mention that I am on my fat loss plan too? Hahas.. Since I have so much time on my hands, I have been swimming a lot and running a lot. Hopefully I can lose those fugly love handles. =D

Oh wells, back to watching my movie. Tatas!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Do you know why I decided to stop blogging?

Because I can be the most transparent person in the world, yet still be mistaken. Not like it always happens.. but well.

What's the point right?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

What should I do tomorrow?

Now that Army is over, and I finally have some time to stop doing things and think, I realise that.. I have nothing to do!! I mean, I have always wanted to go to town and take photos, but I sort of imagined doing it with someone else.

Or I could go to Esplanade library and read books and look at the Merlion spouting water while sipping Cafe Galilee coffee..

Well, one thing is for sure. I will go swim first thing in the morning after eating good ole toast and eggs downstairs. Then.. then what arh. Then go home and sleep for a while first? Maybe practise a little bit of piano ba. Then I think I will buy a good movie to watch at home while stoning..

Haix.. everyone is starting school tomorrow! And those without school are gonna be working. It sucks to feel like I have nothing better to do. Maybe I should volunteer at some charity? Or.. I don't know eh. WHAT CAN I DO??

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Not being able to blog what I want to really say is just like not being able to sigh when I want to. Hahas..

I'm starting to get the habit of looking around hoping to see people I hope to see. And I saw Shuying yesterday! Wah.. unfortunately I was not hoping to see her then. Hmm.

Maybe I'll be able to see who I want to see today!

Shopping time!

Monday, January 05, 2009

Post No.1 of 2009!

Hello!! Hasn't it been the longest time since I blogged?! Wahh.. Like that how to break the 200 post per year mark!

Anyways, since the time that I have been away, there has been so many things happening. For one, 2008 IS GONE! That means we are all older by one year - or going to be older. I can't imagine I am going to be 21 years old in 5 months lorh. According to the POSB lady I met today, that means that I can no longer keep less than $500 in my bank for free. Argh! See, inflation and GST still not enough. Still want to take away my money when I am poor =/

These past few weeks, I took the time to rest from all the hectic work since Australia. Actually, I would say it's really a transition from being an NSF to an NSman. Somehow I still cannot fully put down everything like most others do when they ORD. Not with my RQ being sick lah. I feel that I should do my part to train up my understudy so that he can relieve the load. Those of you who do pray, please pray for my RQ. She's the most hardworking person I have seen, and it would really mean alot. Thanks ah!

Besides work, of course I took the time to play! Went for the Church Camp, which I want to say, COSTS A BOMB. But it was totally worth it lah. It took me all the way to Melaka, and I really learnt alot there. The closeness I feel to God right this moment is probably thanks to the camp. So thank you camp. Hahas.. Anyways, for those considering going to Melaka.. I can only say that it felt quite the same as Singapore. Perhaps because we didn't manage to go to Yueniang's house?

There was also the Youth Camp! Here's a video:



Look at this photo.


Aren't they like the cutest people you have seen? Hahas.. I'm really glad that we have grown so much as a group of friends. And it's really interesting to see the problems I have faced as a teenager surfacing in these people, and helping them to solve it. And all of a sudden I feel so old and grown up. Hmm.

The Youth Camp was helpful too, because it was full of tips about BGR and S.E.X. I mean, I never did have someone talk to me about God's perspective of those things. I guess we lived in a nian dai when you found out about these stuff yourself. Kids nowadays are very xin fu lorh. They are even fed things like these.

We went to Ubin too. And it was plenty fun on the bikes. Good exercise too. Hahas.. And I saw Japanese swimmers at the Changi Beach Club! Super inspired by them lorh. I have been exercising a lot lately because of that. Like. Swimming on Thursday, running on Friday, rest for Sat and Sun, then badminton with Toinh today. Wahh.. Feeling accomplished. Hahas. Endorphins endorphins!

Oh oh! I met up with my primary school people in November too. Or was it December? Everyone looks so much the same lorh! It seems like we are all going on different paths in life, but it was good to be able to chat like old friends too. Ms Sam seems to have forgotten much about us, but it was still fun =)

Then there was the BDCV event when I first went to a club. It was fun and all, but my back started to ache when it was about 2 am. Hahas.. Man, that's a sure sign that I am fat le. WO YAO JIAN FEI!!!

I think that's about all leh.. Oh. And now I am suddenly semi-playing the keyboard sometimes for worship at church. It's really kinda scary. Because I'm not that good yet. Hm. Guess I really have to step over that mental barrier eh? Because it's not how good I am - it's how good God is!

That's it, actually. And I am totally looking for a job right now. Got lobang that is about $7 tell me hor! Arigato. Peace out~!
 
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