Sunday, December 30, 2007

The Allegiance Blog!

I am personally really excited about this. Our new blog is up!! Click here to go there!

The Allegiance is the name for my church's youth group. It has been some time since we really updated the blog because we just stopped writing stuff on it. It's exciting because I fully expect more people to be involved in the blog because it now has a shorter URL, and we intend to give the youth the username and password for them to access it and to blog on. =)

It is still in its raw stages right now, I've only done up the basic layout for the site. Hopefully as days grow on, we would have more to put on it!

Saturday, December 29, 2007

new found poverty.

JEDIT Outing - The National Museum!

Have you been to the National Museum lately? I just went there on Tan Long's recommendation who was in turn goaded by 安娣 to go. I always thought it would be nice to visit the Museum after so long, contrary to Tan Long's belief that everyone would be turned off once they hear the word "museum", and I'm glad I went!

Turns out our Museum has become pretty high tech. We were lucky too that there was some a Greek Lourve exhibit there. Wahh.. It's the first time I've actually seen Greek sculptures, I think. Imagine somewhile that is a few thousand years old just in front of you. Just makes me feel dwarfed.

The main purpose of our visit was actually to see the History of Singapore exhibit which Tan Long is so enthralled about. He promised that it would be something to entertain us for the whole day for just $5. So I thought, "okae, let's see what's so great about this".

It appears that our dear Museum is quite the technologically advanced gallery. When we first entered the exhibit, we were handed headphones and a Companion. As we approached the bridge that was to begin our journey, we were prompted to press 1 on the Companion. What follows is a step by step visual and aural experience to bring us through each of the showcase.

I was personally quite amazed by the gigantic video right at the start. I was thinking how the hell they managed to edit it so that it plays on so many screens both simultaneously and independently?! It must have been tough.

What followed that was a comprehensive collection that brought us through the different stages of the History of Singapore. After spending the whole morning there (until 2pm), we only managed to get up to the Japanese Invasion of Singapore. The exhibit is just too immense!

I would really recommend you to go take a look at it. The National Museum is just located between YMCA and SMU. The nearest MRT is Dhoby Ghaut MRT. Take the exit of Atrium @ Orchard and walk there.

It would be quite interesting if you explored other parts of the Museum too. They are currently having quite a few interesting exhibits. Just go to their website to take a look eh? I found their intro video quite interesting too. Hahas.

PS: I realised that this is one of our rare solely JEDIT outing!! JEDIT stands, of course, for Jun Yuan, Enqing, Dezhi, Ivan and Tan Long. Wow. Hahas. Bet you guys didn't realise! In case you are curious, we are grouped together because we all have no significant others unlike Chow who has 8 or more girlfriends already, and Rich who has a mysterious relationship with a mysterious someone!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Merry Ma

I came across this photograph while finding some Christmas pictures to send to Jamie. Unfortunately all my photos are too big, and Gmail doesn't allow me to send it over. Sorry girl!

Anyways, I saw this photo and thought, "Cannot! I too yan dao here le. Must put in blog!" Hahas. Joking lah. But here it is =)

For those who do not know (many, I expect), this is my beloved Ma! You can call her Auntie or Mdm Kwan. We took this photograph in Orchard while shopping around for her handbag, I think. Quite nice arh.. Looks like we have the Aurora Borealis on toppa us.

This year's Christmas wasn't fruitful in terms of gifts. I only got prezzies from Cheeks, David & Zi Jun, and Pam. Hm. I guess it's because I didn't give anything out ba? But really didn't feel much of the holiday spirit this year. Am I really getting old like Uncle Simon says? I hope it's just because of work! =/

60th.

You know, that banner for my blog was taken in a 60th BB Company Dinner many many years back. When I was in Sec 4 or J1, I think. Back then, we were the organisers for the Dinner. Now the time has come for the annual dinner again! Yet it feels as if everything is falling to pieces.

After my batch left, it seems like the juniors justs did not continue as enthusiastically as my batch in coming back as a Primer to serve 60th. Now that another generation has passed, it seems like there are only 1 or 2 Primers left. Haix....

I remember the NYJC principal's pet phrase, "Remember the source of the water you drink". Do kids nowadays have no such mentality or values? Is Singapore becoming so cut-throat that all we can ever think of is what benefits ourselves?

I believe things will pick up since Cheeks is trying to help out a little. I wish I could, but I don't dare to commit. I'm bad at commitment.. hardly keep any promises. Hahas.. So I'd better not promise anything. But hey. I will definitely go back when I can. Hopefully everything is not too late.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Love is partial to me that day

Of the whole 魔女宥熙, I like this song the best. Love is partial to me that day. Don't ask me why the title is like that. It just came with the 大韓劇2007 CD. Hahas..

I catch myself holding my breath a lot lately. I seem to be waiting for something to happen. Something dramatic you know... Like in the shows that we like to watch. Sadly life is not made of the same stuff as movies.

It's really kind of strange, because I always come home feeling like there's something I haven't done or something missing. Maybe it's God's way of telling me something. Hmm. Or maybe I've been floating too much. Gotta root myself to the ground man.. I am an officer now. Everything has to be rational and businesslike.

Let's hope this feeling passes eh?

Merry Christmas Baby!!

I feel bad about having a crush on a girl with a boyfriend. Somehow I keep getting reminders of that. Tsk tsk. The funny thing is that I probably am just trying to retain that feeling? I don't really know... Anyways, the important thing is that I have decided to stop once and for all. Like stop thinking about all these stuff. So Huimin and MK, stop asking me weird questions. Hahas.

So! How did I spend my Christmas Eve?

I started the day by sending Genial off to *undisclosed country*. Wah. Another friend going to a foreign country for a year. I really envy them lorh. It's really good pay. Plus the fact that they get to live in another country and experience another culture. That's something money can't buy.

Since I was at Changi Airport, I decided to go take a look at T3. It's huge!! But I was quite disappointed that everything was still being renovated and there was nothing for me to shop in. Hmm.. They didn't have anything open. Sad.

I later met up with Huimin since I haven't seen her for quite a while. Decided to go watch a movie you know.. We eventually watched I Am Legend in the evening. It's totally not worth the money lorh.. I give it only 1 out of 5 stars. The ending really killed the whole show. Plus the fact that the storyline is alot like Resident Evil. I came out of the cinema feeling quite pissed that they ended the movie that way. Haix. Should have watched something else!

Anyways, Huimin said something that I found strange. She asked me why I tell everyone I have a crush on that I have a crush on them. Hmm.. I used to always think that if you like someone, you should tell her ba. That's the only way things were going to move forward. I'm not very sure now though.. Not very sure if I like anyone at all. Hahas.. Can't tell anymore.

After leaving Huimin and Swee Wei (met him because we went to see Wei Jun carol), I went carolling myself at Quality Hotel. Aiyah. I regret not telling more people about the Carolling thing. I felt quite alone while walking back to the MRT from there. I guess it's those times when I really feel like I should get a partner ba. Hahas.

So that's that lorh.. I wish I could post some photos.. But Yen Chin doesn't know how to load photos up to his computer from his phone. Wah.. If only I had a camera phone now, we wouldn't have that problem! 910i!!!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

thought troubles.

I've been feeling rather beaten lately. The word "gay" really gets to me somehow, perhaps because I am very aware that my voice is kinda weird. So I've been really defensive about related topics ba... Like when Wen Tian mentioned that my friends are effeminate, I got quite uneasy. These things get to me because these are things I cannot change. I cannot change my voice to be "ungay", I cannot act more "alpha male" by littering my sentences with more smelly vaginas because I just don't do that. I guess I can only take solace in the knowledge that I am in fact, not gay.

Other than this, the two days at work got me quite worried too. Worried because I don't know if I would be up to the mammoth task. Do I acutally have the core competencies required to be a QM? There seems to be so much to do! And my upperstudy does them so well. How can I ever hope to replace him and build the relationships he took 2 years to form in 10 months? To their eyes I am just an NSF who is a passing figure in their lives. How do I even begin?

So there you have it. The two things that are cracking my head now.. =(

Friday, December 21, 2007

take leave zoh boh adventures.

This is all pretty exciting. I went to get the Wizz RSS add-on for my Firefox again because I figured that paying $25 USD for NewsFire sucks. Plus the fact that I only have Mac OSX 10.3.9. Argh.. I want to get my new MacBook Pro!!

Anyways, its great cos I don't have to go to individual sites anymore. Hahas. Feels good. But I really don't like the graphic interface. It's so plain lorh.. At least NewsFire was nice looking. Haix. I guess we can't get the best of both worlds can we?

I've also been hooked on D.Gray-Man after watching it on Central last night. I think Tan Long said it was nice before.. or was it Claymore he mentioned? Hmm. Whatever the case, it's really quite interesting. Go take a look!

And I also saw this YouTube vid Mr Brown recommended. Wah. Looks like Singapore singers are not so ao like others think eh?

Okae.. I think I should get back to D.Gray-Man... Ciao!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

I feel like I can't blog anymore because there are things that I want to say that I cannot say here in this blog. Why? Because I don't want certain people to know certain things ba. I guess it's true that there can only be specialist blogs and not "diary" blogs.

After years and years of blogging, I finally understand this. That I cannot trust anyone with everything. That at the end of the day, it's still me against the world (who sang that arh?) I can hear my idealistic brain falling to pieces. OUCH!~ Dreams are made of fluffy clouds.

Whoa. Emo. Stop stop stop!

Now kids, learn from me. If you like someone, just tell her. Then you won't face such problems. And you would be able to say whatever you want to say. Better than feeling like shit because you think you are not liked back. Then wallowing because you'd never know. Then thinking more about it and being emo about it until you find that you are probably not even wallowing about that anymore, but just wallowing. That you just liked the idea of liking someone.

Whoa. Cheem. But so common right? Hard to figure all these out. Most of the time everything is just blurry. Who can really analyse and say for sure what he feels?

Maybe that's why they invented the word emo. So that we don't have to know the reason anymore. Just emo eh.. Hahas

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

that shift.

Isn't this just the cutest photography you have ever seen? I was browsing through Facebook and this really put a smile to my face. Look at the 招财猫 pose which Tan Long has! And the 黑玫瑰 expression on Rich's face. Lol!

Life as a 2nd Lieutenant is not easy though.. I can feel the stress after the first day of work. There's a lot to do. Yet I don't feel like I am up to it yet. I guess it will come... but man! I miss being a cadet. Hahas. Zhiminnnnnn!! 怎么办!

Being an officer is a very solo job... I think I would dislike that the most. I don't like to be alone. But then again, it's something I have to get used to. Haix.

Listening to 魔女宥熙 soundtrack and feeling really emo. Blehzzz

Monday, December 17, 2007

Days unwritten about are days lost. So I have lost my 42.195km Marathon. I have lost the last remaining days in OCS, and I have lost my Commissioning Parade.

Now I am commissioned! A newly commissioned 2nd Lieutenant of the SAF. Wow.

I am quite sick too. I hate it when I have the flu. All the stupid fluids flowing ceaselessly down my nose. Crap. And the fact that I cannot smell a thing. And that I cannot breathe properly. Erks.

Today just wasn't really a good day for me... Too emo le. I have to get out of this mode! Think happy thoughts. Man, I don't know. I just hope tomorrow would be a good day. And that I would stop thinking about whatever I am thinking about. It's none of my business anymore.. I shouldn't be thinking about anything. Just leave it be.........

Wish I could.
 
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