Sunday, February 17, 2008

tribulations end when the cheerful mind starts.

My Division is too fat and exercising, so time has been scarce for me to blog. At least two people today tell me that I don't update my blog. Hahas.. You know, that may be a piece of really good news considering how I mostly only bitch about work on my blog.

I'm glad I had some reprieve from rations and accommodations and people on top stressing me to do stuff for a day. Yes, the weekend was really really short. One day short, to be exact. But it was fun! Fun because I got to go to church, and because I got to meet my friends out for kBOX! It's not super fun fun, but peaceful fun fun.

I got to sing until my voice cracked. And sing the songs I like. And feel emo while singing certain songs that made me think certain things. Eh. I was thinking one of the songs could be for my crush... Except for one thing though. I don't think I feel the way about my crush like before anymore. That makes her no longer my crush. Hmmm.

晴天
曲/詞: 周杰倫

故事的小黄花
The small yellow flower from the story

从出生那年就飘着
Was wandering since he day she was born

童年的荡秋千
Swinging on a swing in her childhood

随记忆一直晃到现在
Swinging her memories all the way until now.

ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
re sou sou xi dou xi

ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

吹着前奏望着天空
Playing an opening theme, looking into the sky

我想起花瓣试着掉落
I think of petals trying to fall

为你翘课的那一天
That day I skipped school for you;

花落的那一天
That day the flower fell;

教室的那一间
The space of the classroom;

我怎么看不见
Why can’t I see it?

消失的下雨天
That rainy day that disappeared -

我好想再淋一遍
wo hao xiang zai lin yi bian
How I want to be rained upon again

没想到失去的勇气我还留着
Never thought that I still kept my lost courage

好想再问一遍
How I want to ask again:

你会等待还是离开
Will you wait or will you go away?

刮风这天 我试过握着你手
That day that the wind blew I tried to hold your hand

但偏偏 雨渐渐
But unfortunetly, the rain kept on

大到我看你不见
Falling until I couldn’t see you

还要多久 我才能在你身边
How much longer until I can be beside you again?

等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
Waiting for the day to turn clear, maybe I’ll be a little better then

从前从前 有个人爱你很久
Long ago, a person loved you for so long

但偏偏 风渐渐
But unfortunetly, the wind kept on

把距离吹得好远
Blowing, widening the gap so much further

好不容易 又能再多爱一天
So difficult, (I have) another day to love again

但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜
But it seems that, at the end of the tale you still said, “Goodbye”
Kinda missed the times when I still had a crush. Hahas.. Seems like if I was innocent enough to have crush, it would me I would still have some meaning to live for. Like "True Love" to look towards, see? But aiyah. I'm not that idealistic anymore. Sad hor? Means I truly am a cynical bitch now. Argh. Hahas.

Okae lah. Cannot talk so much le. I have to go bathe and get back to camp. Work starts! Survivors ready! Time to outwit, outplay, outlast. GRRRRRR!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

odd one out.

Somehow there's always a feeling like I don't belong in whatever situation I am in. This strange thought inside of me that tells me that I am supposed to be alone, and that no one will understand me, and that other people are just having a lot more fun without me killing the picturesque scene.

I guess this is partly the reason that I don't think that I have a lot of friends. It seems like I am quite myopic in my friend vision and I seldom see past my field of vision.

I'm trying to change that. Even though it is tiring to take the initiative all the time, I will. Even though it is tempting to just go out all the time, I am trying to reserve time now for rest, and for possible last minute gatherings or outings.

I wonder why I feel the way that I do sometimes. But for now, before I know the exact reason, I will do everything to fight it. VICTORY is mine!

the annual gathering.

I met Shu Juan and Pamela for our annual gathering after church today. Shu Juan looks different! Hahas. I supposedly look different too, I guess. Hmm. We are all old people. 20 this year le! And it is 8 years since we graduated from Chongfu. Wah.. Time waits for no man.

So we had lunch at Fish & Co where we got a free Jungle Freeze (woot!) and then went to watch CJ 7 at Lido.

The show is really quite good. Funny at the right places because of the silly things the characters do like trying to shock a stuffed toy or putting a drip on the same toy. Of course, there's signature Stephen Chow slapstick by using ugly fat people...

I give it 3.5 stars!

So anyways, here are the photographs!



LOBANG ALERT!!
The Allegiance is going Dragonboating!! We have 44 seats to fill, and now 6 seats have already been taken! Anyone wants to have a Friday of fun with me? Hahas.. Just call me okae!

Or I will call you ;)

Saturday, February 09, 2008

重温美好

I just shat a whole pile of shit. Hahahahas.. Wah. I kept it inside all the way from Bedok back lorh. By the time I was walking back to my block from the MRT I was already half thinking of releasing it (gross!). Luckily my ren gong was good enough!

You see, the 5 of us JEDIT had TWO FREAKIN' CHICKENS for lunch. 2 eh. Wah.. It was agonising trying to finish everything. Blame Tan Long for overestimating our appetites lah. Hahas. I think I got to a point where I didn't even taste the chicken anymore and I was just eating to finish the thing. Tsk tsk.

Anyways, the lunch was the epilogue to our Chu Er Homing session at Tan Long's house.

Basically the whole gang of us: Cheeks, Wei Ping, Hao Yi, Chow, Rich, Ivan, Enqing, Jun Yuan, Tan Long, Tan Long's chio sister, Tan Long's famous blogger mum and I were all gathered at Waringin Park to have some together time. That meant Ivan's WII!!!! and PS2 and Mahjong and Hellgate LONDON! and Youtube and DotA and lots of makan and drinks. Hahas..

The WII was really quite fun. Seems like quite a few of us had arm aches after yesterday night. I managed to play some surgery game on it. Quite cool leh.. You really get to shake the controller and do more interactive stuff. But I think I still prefer PS3! (I am so going to buy it after I buy a cheapskate FULL HD Palladin Flat Screen Hang-on-the-wall TV for my room!) I'm too lazy and self conscious to keep shaking the stick lah. Hahas. But I think it would really help my sis find some motivation for exercise. Hahas.

It's so great being around friends and having fun. I feel younger somehow. Hahas.. Looking forward to our next session!!! =)

Friday, February 08, 2008

Complaints Choir



This is a really cool video I ripped out of Mr Brown's blog. I guess this is what we can call our culture? Quite funny really =) Lyrics are below...

We get fined for almost anything
Drivers won't give chance when you want to change lane
The indoors are cold, the outdoors are hot;
And the humid air, it wrecks my hair
Those answering machines always make you hold
Only to hang up on you

When a pregnant lady gets on the train
Everyone pretends to be asleep
I'm stuck with my parents till I'm 35
Cause I can't apply for HDB
We don't recycle any plastic bags
But we purify our pee

*chorus:
What's wrong with Singapore?
Losing always makes me feel so sore
Cause if you're not the best
Then you're just one of the rest

My oh my Singapore
What exactly are we voting for?
What's not expressly permitted
is prohibited

"Ooh"

When I'm hungry at the food court, I see
People chope seats with their tissue paper
To the auntie staying upstairs:
Your laundry's dripping on my bed sheets
Please don't squat on the toilet seats
And don't clip your nails on MRT

Stray cats get into noisy affairs
At night my neighbor makes weird animal sounds
People put on fake accents to sound posh
And queue up 3 hours for donuts
Will I ever live till eighty five
to collect CPF?

*chorus

Singaporeans too kiasu! (so scared to lose)
Singaporeans too kiasi! (so scared to die)
Singaporeans too kiabor! (scared of their wives)
Maybe we’re just too stressed out! (even the kids)

"Ooh"

Old National Library was replaced by an ugly tunnel
Singaporean men can’t take independent women
People blow their nose into the swimming pool (and pee too)
And fall asleep on my shoulder in the train

Singapore’s national bird is the crane (the one with yellow steel girders)
Real estate agents’ leaflets clogging up my mailbox (en bloc, en bloc, en bloc, en bloc)
Why can’t we be buried when we die?
No one wants to climb Bukit Timah with me

*chorus

There are not enough public holidays
My neighbor sings KTV all night
Wedding dinners never start on time
My hair is always cut shorter than I want
Channel 5 commercials are way too long
Why do men turn bald?

At first it was to speak more mandarin
Then it was to speak proper English
What’s wrong with my powderful Singlish?

People sit down during rock concerts
We have to pay for tap water at restaurants
ERP gantries are everywhere
But I can still see traffic jams on the road
All the bus stops have tilted benches
Cannot access playboy.com

*chorus

work = $770. exercise? priceless

I believe I am in a season of a drop in dopamine levels due to non-exercise. After a year of exercise almost every day, I don't think I am used to life without it.

I feel fat. I feel insecure about my voice which is "too high" or "androgynous". I feel like I should not be eating so many things. I generally hate my high amount of work and disdain the fact that my boss seems to think that I have nothing better to do.

I need some sun. Or water. I miss swimming and kayaking!! And running. And gymming.

Argh. Angst.
 
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