Friday, October 30, 2009

There's something about this photo that is really... captivating.

A 19 year old goldfish.

First of all, HAPPY BRITHDAY TAN YI-LIN! Fellow Peter-Panner, cheer leader, Team Fab!-er and MC-er!

It's always great to be 19 because you're not a girl, not yet a woman, in other words, Britney Spears. Enjoy your day and your year because before you know it, you won't be a teenager anymore and life will start speeding up into adulthood with sublime responsibilities you have to undertake. Slow down and smell the flowers because the journey is more important than the destination. Don't be in a hurry to grow up because right where you are always the best place to be.

May *ahem* fall for you and you guys have a happily ever after =D AND MAY WE WIN RAG NEXT YEAR!!!! You better spend more birthday wishes on that arh! Stay above the fray and stay true to your heart.

HAPPY 19th!!! =)

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Okay! Now that that's done, it's back to bitching about schoolwork. Marketing project is finally going to be finished today. I think it's safe to say that everyone dreaded it because of the high amounts of information in Chinese we had to go through in order to do our report. I personally think we did it quite alright. I hope that Tanaka thinks so too. -Fingers crossed!-

On other news, I'm still struggling with settling down to study. I always get caught up in this and that and end up not doing anything for the whole day. It's a real bitch. Argh. Really need to go into the wilderness and find my drive again.

DEAN'S LIST LEH!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

It was a frustrating day for me because I was so determined to complete most of my work today, but got stuck at it for more than half a day. Mind Your Own BizNUS was only just out, and my marketing project is still left in the dust. I would really like to blame the lousy internet connection, but it is more likely just me. =(

I haven't been feeling in the best of moods this whole week, and I guess it's starting to show. I need something to perk me up! Hopefully hard work would be therapeutic enough to cheer me up..

Lock and Key.

Time to go back to studies, to work, to troubles, to life.

The finals are in 3 weeks and I have my very first test coming next week on 4th November. Time will never be enough, and staring at the screen is no longer an option. Be strong, Mr Suan! Let's pwn the dean's list's ass.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Bloop bloop.

I think I was a fish in my previous life! Oh wait, I don't believe in reincarnation. Hmm. Just did 20 laps in the pool this morning! I feel thin =D

Using the free pool everyday was part of the plan when I first moved into PGP. So was mugging every darn day too. Then Bizad Club came along and my priorities shifted slightly, and I became a perma Clubroom resident, and somehow I lost that wanting to exercise and mug.. =(

So here I am, discovering it again. Hopefully this lasts!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Looks like I still can't run away from your shadow. Thinking back it was probably a grave I dug for myself there.. Oh wells, I'm just going to take it slow and casual. Reaaaaal slow.
Life is like reading books.

There are times when you pick up a good one, and you really wish that you could read it forever, and when it finally ends, there's a reluctance to put it down.

The things that the book has impressed or taught might have been amazing and eye-opening. At times, it might even have shaped the life that you have now, or the world-view that you have. But the book still comes to at end.

I'm learning how to put that book down and let the characters slide. It's not an easy thing to do, but it's what I believe it's what I have to do. I just wish I won't hurt people in the process.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Use Somebody


I'm starting to like the rock version more that the Ana Free version I always espouse...
I went kayaking with Wei Lun and Jun Kai and ahem! Zoey after piano lesson just now. Just like old times!

It felt really good to be able to kayak after sooooooo long. For once I took on a K1 without any capsize! We went all the way out to Marina Barrage and got whistled at by security. Afterwhich we went to the Singapore Flyer. Wei Lun wanted to go up to the Merlion, but the combined wisdom of Jun Kai and me convinced him to go back before we get towed away by the PCG or something.

I have said this before, but there is really something about kayaking and the water that calms me. Perhaps more in a T1 because I don't have to worry about balance, but being out there and seeing the city from another perspective with the wind blowing in your face is quite something. Being able to go to Marina Barrage by boat is something that I bet not anyone can experience! The irony is that I have never really been there by foot before. LOL.

It was kind of weird for Wei Lun I bet.. Even I got a little irked by the mushy things they were doing to each other. EEKS. But it was altogether very sweet lah. Awww. I want that too =) Too bad. =/

1:15:40!


I just came back from the Nike Human Race 10K. It was a route very similar to Stan Chart, but I stopped to walk quite a few times =( I think I am starting to get old and fat!

Some pointers I got from the race...
  1. Always shit before you run. I ended up running with stomachache..
  2. Tighten your laces before you run. I had quite abrasion on my feet and and painful knees
  3. Never wear dry-fit. It got dripping wet by the time I was done and it just felt really cold and horrible
  4. Eat something in the morning! I felt hungry when I was running. -sobs-
  5. Bring friends. It was quite lonesome to run alone =S
So yeah... There's that. I think I will restart my swimming regime again. Running kills my knees, but I really need to get fit again for 42K. Bleh!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

So. Mother's birthday turned out to be okay after all, even though I didn't get her anything. Sis bought her a Braun Buffel handbag, but from what I hear, she didn't like it too much. Was thinking of suggesting a day out shopping this Saturday. Think it's a good idea?

Anyways, let me fill you in about the dinner. We went to the new Chinese restaurant at Northpoint just to try it out. If my memory serves me well it is named Mayim. Well, the place pretty much specialises in Sichuan-styled dishes, but there were very weird elements, like how they gave us bad tasting peanuts and kimchi for appetisers. I was sorely disapppointed with the way they dealt with the cod fish too. It could have been so much better! Generally though, not bad for a place like Northpoint. We are becoming the next Ang Mo Kio! Way to go, Yishun! =P

Mum was pretty happy to hang out with us kids as we were talking nonsense like the different going rates for different services in Geylang and about my brother's SEP thingie. Better than I expected, frankly. Mum got a diarrhoea the immediate morning after though. Hmm.

Today was fun too. I spent most of the day lazing in the club room because I didn't feel like getting any work done, and we all went for the SEP talk. Which, by the way, was sorely disappointing. I thought there was actually going to be some kind of useful information shared. Not something I could have read off a website! Bummer.

After, Kai Li, Cam and I went to WCP for awfully sweet coffee. Bleh. Loved the pitchfork chairs though.. Too bad I didn't bring my camera, or I would have taken a photograph to share it with you guys. Lovely little place with orange lighting (love those!) and pretty light-shades.

Nigerian Girl was rather okay today too. At least I feel as if she is more prepared for her O levels next week. From PASS to at least a C I would think. Yay!

And now for some photos we took from Photo Booth!

Movie date tomorrow! =))

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Happy Birthday Mum!


It's Mother's birthday!!

With desperation I tried to google "good mum gifts". Unfortunately there was nothing concrete enough that I could buy within a couple of hours.

The best thing that I can think of is a Gucci wallet. But of course, that is quite out of reach and belongs only to my dream where I am actually cash-rich with excess even after I bought all the things I have ever wanted. Think Mini Cooper, iPhone, Saville Row suits...

Okae, I digress. This is supposed to be about Mum.

What do people get Mums in the first place? My mum is not one who craves branded items or wears jewellery. For so many years she has slogged so that we could get the best things. Like the MBP I am using, or the iPhone that my brother has, or all the food that my sister gets. Hmm.

I am very tempted to buy a wallet. But I have limited resources =( Necklace, but she doesn't really wear them. Clothes.... not really my thing to shop for my Mum. What what what??!

Maybe a card. Arghs. HELPPPPP!
I found my MBP charger!!!

More correctly, Camillus helped m to find my charger. Yayness! I was totally irritated and angry at having lost it and the prospect of buying a new one last night. Thank God I found it this morning =) That's a savings of $148.

It's been a relatively slow week so far since midterms are over. I did quite okay, in my opinion.. Now it's time to gear up for the finals =( Hopefully my steam would last til then.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Seeking.

I was relieved of my Chinese ministry duties today. Truth be told, I do not know yet what to make of it. Zi Jun said that it was because she didn't want the ministry to become one of the factors in my deciding whether to stay in church or to leave.

If you ask me, I am really still asking God to show me what I should do. With what has happened, I don't believe I can personally just carry on and pretend like everything is fine and dandy. I also realise that this is God's way of showing me that I would have to test what I believe in.

All these years, I have taken what has been taught and preached as truth without really consciously filtering what I believe in and all in a matter of weeks I am suddenly thrown in a circumstance where I have to decide, or realise, what exactly I am believing in. Is Christianity all about doing good as so many understand it? Or is it all about the Holy Spirit as others have preached?

I was confronted with the fact that I do not really know as much about my beliefs as I would like to admit. A fact that I intend to change. I can really only seek God to show me the way. Even if there are costs in following Him, even if there is opposition and misunderstanding..

He is no fool
who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose - Jim Eliot

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Beliefs.

Today's POTD is brought to you by Facebook! And because I'm feeling generous, there are 2 photos! More wholesome Mr Suan goodness for you =)

Teckie dropped by Bschool for lunch and a mugging session where he totally slept. Pretty amazing, considering how noisy Biz normally is..

Now, an interesting question he asked me for his philo tutorial:

"If you were fighting with your friend for the same internship spot, and suppose you had an edge over him, would you help him by all your means, or reserve some of your knowledge to yourself so that you can maintain your comparative advantage?"

My answer was a sound yes, that I would help that friend and let the interview decide who's the better between the 2 of us. Somehow he thought I was naive I guess. I later thought about it a bit more and realised that this is exactly what makes Christians different from others. We are all called to be salt and light of the world, to shine in the darkness and to preserve goodness. Even if I might be in business where one is taught to be shrewd and wise to the ways of the world, I will never want to give that up.

Interestingly, the VCF membership class this evening talked exactly about being salt and light of the world and influencing others for Christ in campus. I guess I still have a lot of work to do in that area since I have mostly kept my faith very personal.

Frankly it was rather refreshing to know VCF's doctrines and distinctives. It made me realise that it is actually quite important to really know what I believe in, and that it's also important for people as a corporate body to believe in the same things. In the light of recent events, I feel that perhaps that was overlooked when I was younger. It's probably a very good time to question myself rigorously about this!

More Clubroom love! =) I thought I looked too cute in this photo to pass up the opportunity to share it. =P

That's all for tonight! Earendil is dying without his charger. Tomorrow will be a brighter day!
Yes, you saw it right. Leopard preennsss!

The day was mostly spent solely on Yes We Care!, watching Gossip Girl and shopping for the presents for the birthday girls. What a wonderful use of time eh? And so that was how my free day was used up =(

Chairman, Cam and I went to Vivo to shop for the present mainly because I have been bitching about how school is depressing and boring and also because we had 3 girls in the MC with birthdays in October and we absolutely had to get them gifts before we were hounded down and killed.

Us being guys, we didn't really have any clue as to what to get for them, especially since they are such distinct individuals. We tried nonetheless and got them all stuff! But I cannot say what lah =X

Xumao got himself trousers and a tee from Zara. I totally approve of the bottoms, by the way. It looks really good. If I lived in Lentor Terrace, I would buy them myself =) I got myself a great looking vest as you can see in the photo =)) Sorry you didn't get anything Cam.. But I totally think you should get that top you picked out!

It was fun in the end, I guess. We had Diao Xiao Er for dinner and spent $25 each on skinny duck, lotus roots and a very fat pig trotter. URGH. I guess a night of indulgence is okae! Hahas..

Alright then, I should get to working. Ciao.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Good Morning Upper East Siders,

Mr Suan here, your one and only source into the lives of erm.. my own life.

So yesterday was quite bad.. I guess all the gloom talk and the bad weather got to me and I just acted in accordance to my feelings. I need to get out of the school compound for a breather before I suffocate under the similar surroundings. School gets quite boring really fast when the only moving things are people. Okay, maybe not, just that I need to get away from the busyness of everything and find my serenity in.. looking at things behind glass windows. LOL.

On other news, Issue 1 of Mind Your Own BizNUS has been launched! Read all about it here. I am terribly proud of it because I haven't done a full HTML script since the longest time. Maybe since Sec 4? The fact that one of my KPI is fulfilled is cool too =)

You know you love me!

xoxo
Mr Suan

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Moon River.


The song Moon River from Breakfast at Tiffany's. Best movie ever!

This song also happens to be my mother's favourite song, back when my parents sat down together in the living room listening to Frank Sinatra together. My dad's favourite was New York, New York.

Wistful mood today, it seems..

Studies.

I just finished a long overdue session of listening to Fu Qiang's webcast lecture and I am finally feeling a little bit of accomplishment from knowing what exactly I am studying. I know full well that the past few weeks and the midterms were below my personal expectations and I am really trying to claw my way back into the mood of studying again. I guess I can't really blame anything or anyone but myself for being so distracted lately.

I got back my Stats results today. A meagre 19 upon 25 which puts me below the 50th percentile in the whole Stats tutorial class. Absolutely disgusting, Dezhi. What in the world are you doing? Right now I am just waiting for the results for Management Science and I would more or less have a fuller picture of what my CAP would be like. Hopefully Project Become-A-Genius-In-6-Weeks would actually work within the next 6 weeks...

If there is something I have learnt in these past weeks, it's that no one else is responsible for your learning, and that you really can choose your choices. You can even choose how you would want to feel to certain situations or circumstances in your life. I allowed that whole drama to affect me too much and consequently everything went awry. Yet I just take a look around, I would be able to see so many other people who have things going on in their lives as well, but are doing much better than me. A lesson in humility and in self-control is in order, it seems.

That said, I am still trying to find my path in University. I am finally starting to feel like I can integrate into all these and take my work seriously. I am also starting to feel more "formed" as a person as I see where my priorities lie, where my strengths are and what my beliefs are. Isn't it wonderful how God puts all things together in such brilliant clarity when just the year before I was looking for my direction? Trusting God to lead me in ways everlasting!

Alrights. I think I have typed enough. I should probably sleep or risk missing my subject pool tomorrow. Until the next typing diarrhoea!

xoxo

Monday, October 12, 2009

Kai Li the waitress!
Good morning, people! Finally a day that doesn't start with a heavy heart. =) I think today will be just fantabulous, don't you!

Lectures are starting again, which means I wouldn't feel that I am slacking around all the time. I haven't caught up with all my work yet, but I am quite determined to work it! This week marks the start of the Yes We Care! campaign. Hopefully everything would rock~~~!

Okay. GOTTA GO MUG!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I feel like I am ready to let go.

Thursday, October 08, 2009

The ice melts.

I came to the sudden realisation that the Finals are coming in 6 weeks time. Enough enjoying the joy of getting full marks for Econs or lamenting the fact that I might not do as well for MS or Stats. Finals are coming!

I really need to find it within me to start mugging seriously, and activate that old sponge in my head. ABSORB YOU TWIT!

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

四连拍!


I was left alone in the Clubroom for a while. Thankfully the seniors came in and we photoboothed! =DD

I spent today teaching tuition and then getting back. LOL!

So unproductive lorhs. I need to mug harder! On other news, somebody got full marks for Econs! =) I know I will die for MS and Stats, but this is my momentary bliss. So I am totally enjoying it! Yayness!

Hmmm. I really feel like shopping.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Hello world!

Today is a better day because I JUST CAUGHT A HYDRA WITH BLUEPRINTS!

19:00
I checked my trap and found that I had caught a mouse! I caught a 7 oz. Hydra mouse from the Lagoon worth 9,634 points and 5,767 gold.

The mouse also dropped the following loot:
1 Ship Blueprints, 6 Splintered Woods, 1 Rope.

Thank you God! =)

On other matters, Kai Li and Nick were kind enough to be my sounding board this afternoon and I feel so much better just letting everything out of my chest. It wasn't as screamy and dramatic as I imagined it in my head, but it sufficed..

I could really see the points that Nick was making. I guess this season is really a time of testing for me as well. I would have to learn to rely on God more and not do things on my own strength.

I just really pray that I can get out of this unscathed.

One rock removed.

4 gigantic pimples are forming on my face. Such that I have to hide them behind my camera =(

Midterms has ended today! Stats paper was.. I wouldn't say tough, but challenging. There were some tricky parts that I couldn't get. Hope for the best!

At least that was one source of stress removed. Now I just have to deal with the rest of the stuff. Argh. Angst!

Sunday, October 04, 2009

You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

Some things happened at the end of this past week that devastated me. I don't think there's a need to put up a front in my own blog, so I'll just say it. It hurts, and it's really disappointing. I would think more so for the people concerned... In fact, if I could cry out without people staring at me, I would.

I just never knew that things would come to this. All along I guess I have maintained some kind of naive thinking that that part of my life would be devoid of such nonsense. Turns out that that's never the case. Shit is just waiting for your face so that it can hit it at full force. LOL.

I HATE POLITICS!

But still I must remember that God is still in control. Yes. He's still on His throne, whatever happens. And we must all be accountable to Him in the end.

Look's like there's going to be a premature ending to this chapter of my life. Haix..

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - 1 Corinthians 13:13

Friday, October 02, 2009

FML.

I am starting to get really worried. Midterms I can deal with. But a C+ for Marketing tutorial?! This means I have to ace the group assignment and ace the final years exams to climb back up.

OMG. Why do bad things happen at the same time? FML.

Thursday, October 01, 2009



No photo today, but I have a desktop wallpaper! Created this during Stats lecture because I was starting to doze off.

I REALLY NEED TO MUG!

And the added stress is not doing me any good. Urghs.

Heal Over by KT Tunstall



It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday

-

Did I mention that KT was one of my favourite singers? She still is. Love her voice and how relaxed her music is.

I guess one day I'll heal over too.
 
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