Thursday, October 30, 2008

19

I was getting really bored so I started reading manga other than the usual Naruto and Bleach. I thought One Piece was now too big for me to start following, so I went for the No.4 instead.

Bitter Virgin.

It's a story about how this girl got raped and abused by her stepfather and her mother refused to believe her. She had a baby and aborted it and then had another baby again which was sent for adoption. Then she finally left her family and started being afraid of guys.

And the story starts the Guy meeting the Girl and swearing that he would never fall for the Girl but eventually falling for her. -_-

So I'm now at the part where the Guy finds out that he likes the Girl but doesn't know if the Girl likes him and is afraid to tell her that he likes her because he thinks that it's impossible for them to be together. Hmmmm.

I wonder how the story will end.

Monday, October 27, 2008

22

You know, I realised I've never really asked myself what I liked. I probably did that a long time ago making a list of likes and dislikes, but most of the time, I was more concerned with observing what others liked or disliked.

So since I've had so much time here, I think it's a good time to consolidate my thoughts and figure out what kind of things I like. That probably sounds weird because people are supposed to know what they like, but hey, I never really did take a step back to look at it. So here's my chance!

Likes.

1) Kayaking. Not really the sprints but the recovery from sprints. I know that I have sucky strokes and I would never ever be near the fastest. It's really the rowing up part that gets to me. Because you can enjoy how the water touches your paddle and how you are just gliding along. Especially after an arduous row, you feel the ultimate sensation of relaxation from just paddling without really thinking with the trees going past. Wahhh.

2) Running. This is quite an unlikely one, considering the sweat it generates and how it makes me pant under my fats =/ But I realised that running can be quite addictive for me, especially because it burns lots and lots of fat! Hahas.. Just kidding! It's more about that feeling of accomplishment after running a certain distance and saying to yourself, "hey, I didn't know I could do that!"

3) Swimming. I've always liked this because just doing the laps allows my mind to wander. Kinda helps in Math too by counting laps. Hahas.. But I haven't really been swimming lately because I'm often too lazy to go to the pool. Hmmm.

4) Reading. Well, it's one of the best ways to pass time if you've got a good book in your hand, like what I have now. It's my 4th book already! Hopefully the stock doesn't run dry before the 22 days are over. Reading really helps too when all you want to do is get away from the people jumping up and down in your face. All I need is a room and a cup of water plus my book to occupy me for hours on end. Bliss!

5) Cycling. I can't say I absolutely love it yet, but I have been slowly modifying my MB to become a faster, lighter bike. Like part road, part trail. Hehs. And it's a good way to get to work. If I could then I would want to go everywhere in a bike. But the bloody trucks in Singapore have no respect for human life. Pfft. I'm looking to changing my seat and adding a small pouch under it. Then I'd be ready to take it somewhere further than Bishan. Hahas.

6) Going out with friends. I was going to say DotA, but I am not as hardcore as all the rest of the clique combined. In fact I probably don't like it much.. What I do like is the times we get to chill out or just go have a game or two. The bar sessions are quite fun too. Yeah. Pretty much any time out with friends is pretty good time.

7) Talking. I realised that I get to sort things out better when I start talking. It's almost like I can't really think without talking. Hmm.. But as people would know, I generally am not someone who talks a lot. I wonder why...

Dislikes.

Hmmm.. I can't think of anything specific actually. Individual people, yes, but no traits or things to speak of. Pickles, perhaps?

Well, I think that's that. Gee. That makes my life kinda 2 dimensional doesn't it? Oh wells. I guess that's just me. =P


Saturday, October 25, 2008

24

I am resorting to sleeping in the day to pass the time. From past experience, this means that things are starting to go downhill. I normally only sleep when I get those super depressing "I don't want to talk to anyone" moods. And I guess I am getting there too..

The "big hoohah" has sort of died down and we are back to normal boring life again. I know it's sadistic, but at least it did something to help me occupy my time. I can't believe there's still 4 weeks left after so long!!

The first thing I want to do when I get back to Singapore go out with my friends!!!! =///

Friday, October 24, 2008

25

Just gotta hang in there and in a moment's time everything will be over. I think there can't be more drama than what happened here this past few days. I really have to be careful what I wish for next time.....

Friday, October 17, 2008

31.

Sipping Jim Bean Coke and accumulating my ORD hair while I am here. This was a particularly eventless day with no one asking for stores. Haix. The long road ahead seems dreary and dusty. When can I see my beloved homeland once more?!

Right now I fully appreciate what it really means to be homesick. It's not really that you are consciously thinking of home, just that home is so many times more attractive than a foreign country where everything is so strange and unfamiliar. I oft have to fake an accent just to get my desired subway. It's so much easier back in Singapore where people can actually get Singlish. Wah.. I so appreciate our manner of speech now. =/

Anyways, I finally got myself a utility knife and I am wondering what I can do with it. It just seemed cool at the time. Hahas.. Well, I'm sure I'd find use for it.

Bought myself a new book that was touted "John Grisham, step aside". Hopefully it lives up to the hype! Hopefully it lasts more than 3 days too. Argh.

I think it's about time I started calling people. Feeling super isolated from everyone because I don't really have any lines of communication with anyone outside of this prison. And Facebook is just a poor substitution for humans. The time gap between here and Singapore is really irritating though. Take for example now. I'm starting to get quite tired because of the weather here, but it's only 5 p.m. in Singapore. That means that no one is online and everyone is just starting to pack up from work. By the time it is 7 p.m., it would have been too late and I would either be watching a late night movie in the mess, or I would be knocked out in my tent. Bleh. So be understanding and flood my Wall and tagboard eh? Hahas..

Oh, and did I mention that my hair is growing absurdly long? A hair cut here costs $16. And that's just the barber. Imagine if I wanted to get a stylist.. Perhaps I can keep this hair all the way until August next year and scare everyone. Hahahahs.

Alright. I should go. You take care and I love you! Haixxxx.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

32

Everything is starting get on my nerves and the only thing that's keeping my sanity is listening to music off my iBook. Bro's iPod is spoilt - I am so gonna get killed when I get back. Fuck.

The fact that there is 32 days left is really really demoralising. I am starting on my 3rd book and it somehow has to last me till the end. I bet I will even finish reading the bible then! Haix..

Let me go homeeeee!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

34.

There are 17 more days to my promotion, 32 more days to leaving here and 34 more days to leaving this country.

I wonder what kind of world I will return to. You know, when you have left a place for some time, things change. It seems like a global financial meltdown had occurred while we were stuck in this place, and at the same time, a huge emergency package had rescued it. All these are happening at so quick a pace!

Life down here has been pretty much the same. I have had to deal with cleaning up other's shit. You know, the worst thing that you can do as a superior is to distrust the professionalism of your subordinate and create shit for him to do. That is the quickest way in my opinion to earn disrespect and spit from anyone.

Anyways, I'm just being angsty to fill time, so don't mind me.

On other fronts,

Thursday, October 09, 2008

39

Finally some time and Internet for an update!

I have been here for about 7 days now. It has been rather monotonous really. Every day is about waking up, working, then sleeping again. And everything is really starting to get me peeved.

The weather here's rather good, with the temperature dropping to about 20 degrees at night, allowing us to have good air con without it becoming too cold. Just have to stay indoors during noon time though. It's fucking hot.

So anyways, it was not as impressive as I thought it would be. The troops' arrival I mean. It's even less than a ripple than the rain makes. Maybe it's because it doesn't rain in here. Hmm.

I'm missing home a lot too. Nothing really specific, just the general feeling of being home and feeling rested instead of lying on the cross leg bed all night in a semi-awake state. We were just having lunch and somehow the talk turned to $12 rojaks. Basically we were wondering if anyone would sell us $12 worth of rojak if we asked for it (back in Singapore, of course). And we were talking about how we would want less tau pok and more you tiao, and just half the amount of beansprouts. Hahas.. yes, we are hungryyyy.

Some other thing has been bothering me too, and I really wish I could go back to Singapore so that I wouldn't have time to think about it so much. It's really a cruel sort of entertainment for me. At least the fantasies keep me going.

Man, I wish time would fly faster. And I would have more to do. And that I can hop on the MRT and just go over to Orchard with somma friends or have some rich cake (pun intended!). Arghhh. To think they are playing DotA without me =/

Oh wells. I'll just have to bear with it and hang in there and encourage myself more and blah blah blah. Haixx.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

forty-seven.

Dear folks,

I will be leaving you for my training area tomorrow morning. It has been a fun and new experience here at ___ University. Although the food is a little too expensive, a little too fattening and a little too yucky, all in all it turned out quite okay.

I am going to miss the Internet connection here man. Where I go is a place without reception. Haix...

I am so dreading the fact that for another 1 month plus I will be inside! ARGHHH.

Nothing much to say le. Take care you guys, it's goodbye for real this time.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Preview!

四十八。

再过两天我们就会进入演习区,我也必须真正的与你们道别了。

过了那么多天,我开始觉得选择来到这里是个错误。不要误会,我并不是指这里的人不好之类的···只是我觉得在新加坡可以做更多的事。在这里好像废人一样,不是吃就是睡,不然就是开会。超无聊!

因为24小时都是在“军士”环境下,我发现自己不时会胡思乱想,把自己埋地好好的事都揪了出来。还是别说那么多了吧!听歌!

回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 / 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 / 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋 / 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 / 无法存活在真实的空间

Chorus

想回到过去 / 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 / 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去 / 试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 / 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知 / 还来不来得及

想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

Repeat Chorus

沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉

想回到过去
 
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