Wednesday, April 23, 2008

On Tibet.

I have this theory that old people like to read newspaper because they find everything else too boring to do. I am actually reading newspapers now because of that reason.. Somehow DotA is not fun anymore, television is not exactly entertaining, and I've finished surfing all the websites that I can surf. Even Facebook is not appealing! Argh.

Anyways, I was prompted to blog because of this statement I found in The Straits Times regarding the French government's response to China after the Chinese expressed anger at Paris honouring the Dalai Lama with an honourary citizenship, "France's system is like that, the president cannot control the mayors". Pretty funny don't you think? He just managed to take a gibe at China with one sentence saying that China is totalitarian! Hmmm.. ironic eh?

Regarding this Tibet issue, I really think the best way to work things out is for the Chinese government to step down the heavy policing and move the media away from Tibet at least until the Olympics are over. By quibbling with other nations and continually taking a tough stance against critics, China shows herself as stubborn and obstinate. The truth of the matter is that the West would never believe that the Tibetans are living alright in a Chinese-displaced Tibet, so just leave the matter already! By denouncing the Dalai Lama, China is just adding more adversaries.

Then again, who would dare go against China now that America is facing recession and China seems to be one of the countries still going strong? The fact that it is highly self-sufficient in terms of agriculture also strengthens its position in the world in our current context of rising food prices and inflation.

Hopefully the Chinese can come to a logical conclusion and realise that talking to the Dalai Lama would be no big deal, and end the violence in Tibet. That way, we can all concentrate on what is important in the Olympics: the celebration of sportsmanship and international friendship.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

piano weeping memories.

I have been hooked to watching Lang Lang videos on YouTube lately. If you don't already know who is Lang Lang, he is a fat Chinese pianist who happens to be a genius. It's quite funny to watch the videos, because he is such an animated pianist. I somehow feel more drawn to Yundi Li though, because he fits my perceived image of a pianist better. He feels more dignified and reserved as compared to the explosive and feisty Lang Lang. Anyways, this all started when my piano teacher, Ms Goh, got me to watch the video of Lang Lang playing Chopin using an orange... It's totally random, I know!

Anyways, one of my men cried today. I realised that I can't really understand men crying... Yes, I get why he cried, but I just felt that it was excessively emo on his part. I think all the rejection I got is starting to cause me to withdraw from normal emotional reactions and causing me to be more indifferent to other's emotional needs (I read all this in a book). Can this all be true? Hmm. Maybe I should have said what I felt then.. Alas, all is lost!

I've been having this same scene of studying in Nanyang outside the LTs on the ground level. It was one of the days where we were studying for A levels there. It was also around there where we had rehearsals for Chinese Drama Night. Somehow the scene is particularly vivid in my mind: the red walls, yellow doors, long stairs up, five of us studying... Those were the days when I really felt that I had people caring for me. Right now we are all so busy with our own new lives, and non-lives for some, that it's impossible to recreate that again. I miss school!!! University come quickly!

Monday, April 21, 2008

不能说的秘密

Forget sad, you emo bitch!
Remember happy. I'm happy!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Top Ten Things I Want If I Had My Way For My Birthday

  1. Love!

    So cheesy, I know. Hee.

  2. Get into Law School.
    Hopefully the interviewers found what I said interesting and funny enough to consider me. And maybe NUS might finally ask me to go in for interviews. A perfect score ain't the world you know! What happened to EQUAL OPPORTUNITIES?

  3. Mini Cooper S Cabrio

    A convertible Mini! That's like. The ULTIMATE DREAM CAR!

  4. MacBook Pro

    A staple for every mindless Mac-loving freak.

  5. Sony Ericsson W910i

    Eh it won the Best GSM Phone award okae! Don't play play ah! Hmm.. Should I get black or white?

  6. A leather slingbag to replace my old black OP sling bag. Fossil has some nice bags you know.. but someone I never got around to buying them.

  7. Canon IXUS 75

    Snap snap! So that I can cam-whore. It's so difficult with my Lumix lorh!

  8. SGD 1,000,000 to drop from the sky onto my lap.

  9. Lose weight!

  10. For the whole world to be happy so that we would stop warring and start doing something concrete about global warming and our exploding population. Like migrating to the moon.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

live well.

Something really dramatic happened yesterday at G4 Branch cohesion dinner, or as what G4 would like to put it, "just dinner". RQ was chatting happily to us when she suddenly felt numbness in her back which eventually spread to the left side of her face and the arm. Her face contorted with pain as she grasped her forehead in anguish. Ahhhhh....

After a lot of massaging for her, she was better. We called the ambulance and sent her to the hospital just to make sure she was alright. You know, that was the first time I really saw paramedics in action. There were many times when I saw them in a distance, pushing some old lady into the ambulance but never really this up close. I was kind of scared that something serious would have happened too...

Anyways, I went down to NUH in G4's car to find out how she was. Turns out that even in A&E, you would have to wait for 4 hours before you even get to see the doctor. If I were having a mild stroke that was not detected (as what this case might be), I would have died. Isn't there any way they can speed up the process? Doctors of the future, think about this! This is supposed to be the frontline we are talking about here man!

We waited all the way from 6.30pm to about 10.30pm for her to be warded for observation. So far her ECG was alright, and the doctor said that there was nothing perceivably wrong with her, but they just wanted to keep her there for some observation since that was the third of the same case that day. I hope that everything is alright!! Life without RQ in QM branch would be a nightmare...

On a side note, NUH has a horrible structure. It takes more than 20 mins to get from the A&E to the patient wards at Kent Ridge Wing 2. Couldn't they just have a central atrium for people to find their way instead of winding in and out of everywhere? Grrr...

It also struck me in this episode how as people we can be so "cool" or just nonchalant about others. I guess that as I grow up, I will become like that too... losing all the concern for others, only caring about myself. Is there any way to escape that? I certainly hope so..

I am also reminded that anything can happen at any time, and that each every little thing is precious. Treasure the people around you and love them! For none of us know the time and day... I know it's cliché but really. So to everyone who knows me, know that I love you okae! Hahas.

American Idol Gives Back: Daughtry



I was watching AI Gives Back the other day and this video really caught my eye. I guess it was how the music was able to touch the kids in Uganda. Kinda cool really. I'd be hypocritical if I said I really cared for them, but it was moving for me. And the fact that Daughtry sounded so good was a plus. =)

The lyrics are quite meaningful too. Unfortunately I don't have someone to sing this to. LOL!

What About Now
Daughtry


Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Thursday, April 17, 2008

I FEEL

TOTALLY ANTISOCIAL RIGHT NOW.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

All I See by Kylie Minogue



Truth be told, Kylie Minogue reminds me only of disco balls and Madonna like dances. Turns out that she has songs that I like too =) Here's bringing you All I See acoustic version by Kylie Minogue! Trust me, it will be on radios soon man.

Law Interview

I am so horrible!! I promised to send Khai Ming off at the airport yesterday night, but I just fell asleep. Argh. I guess I was too tired from the waterpolo. My best soldier has left for Taiwan! What would I do without him? Already I've had to scold the platoon yesterday. Plus the fact that Lion is totally unreliable. Man...

Anyways, I got a horrible sunburn from the waterpolo plus a red eye. =/ My right eye has been getting random bouts of irritation since it got poked in BMT. I always think of seeing an eye doctor about it, but I never do. Probably because the last time I did see a doctor, he charged me $60 for saying that there's nothing observably wrong with my eye =.=

The interview today went quite okae... I didn't feel like I did really good.. but I think it was better than last year. And the first thing that the interviewer asked me was "What happened to you, why are you so red?" Hahas.. Funny eh? And I realised that I am really getting older. In a good way, I guess. I seem to be able to handle myself better. I may not have the most ideas and opinions in the room, but I seem to have the most composure.

I hope and pray that everything goes well!! If you read this, please pray that I get into Law School for me! Hahas..

Sunday, April 13, 2008

emooo...

It's been a long time since I did something that I felt was meaningful to myself... Maybe meaningful is a wrong word to use... Happy seems more right. Like high in happyness density kind of happy. Like frolicking in the pool; like playing volleyball in Sentosa; like shopping in Orchard. When did I stop doing these things and start worrying about going to work on Monday?

I think I'm getting pre-Monday blues already =/ I need some happy credits in my bank!! Where's my serenity? Hahas.. I guess it's the work stress getting to me already. Or maybe I'm trying to resist getting old. Argh. All these are horribly depressing. I need some time away from DotA and things that just fill time. I need some wholesome activity!! Not eating, or playing.. but well.. just enjoying something!

Anyone wants to go night cycling with me anytime soon?



Vienna
The Fray

The day's last one-way ticket train pulls in
We smile for the casual closure capturing
There goes the downpour
Here goes my fare thee well

CHORUS
There's really no way to reach me
There's really no way to reach me
There's really no way to reach me
'Cause I'm already gone

Only so many words that we can say
Spoken upon long-distance melody
This is my hello
This is my goodness

CHORUS

Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again
Straighten this whole thing out
Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy
This is the distance
And this is my game face

There's really no way to reach me
There's really no way to reach me
Is there really no way to reach me
Am I already gone?

So this is your maverick
This is Vienna

Saturday, April 12, 2008

It is a fine Saturday afternoon after the light rain in the morning. Jay Chou 2007 The World Tours plays on the television. That's quite a nice feeling you know, doing nothing at all, a good break from having to worry about reports or people taking MC or even why they don't come for LIVE runs.

By the way, the concert really looks quite fun! It's a pity I never got to see a real one. Argh. Man. I WANNA SEE JAY CHOU LIVE IN CONCERT!! Wait three more years, I guess..

It seems that working has made me more tired. Seems like I hardly have time for anything anymore. Friends from school are drifting apart, so are friends from LOCC. I guess that's the case for every phase of life eh? It's not just the friends though, its the things that we did. The right to be childish and carefree. It seems like we have lost that as well. There's this restlessness that comes from knowing that life is so much more yet I am not going out and grabbing it. Because I don't know how to start.

Oh wells. Until I find out, it's living day by day by day by day......

Alright. I should go and watch Tian.. Shi Wo Ai Ni. lols.
 
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