Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying.

Jerry Maguire was a good movie. "You complete me." That's really sweet! Hahas. Too bad I probaby would have no chance of saying the same thing to some girl =/

What really surprised me was Fight Club, actually. I downloaded this movie a long time ago, and watch the front part of it and then somehow deleted it. Today I got to see the whole film. Oh man oh man oh man!

The movie describes the rebellion of the blue-collar worker against the unthinking citizen who just expects everything to work out without ever thinking of the reason as to why. Why should we have good furniture? Do we really need phones that can do everything? It is story of going against society's grain, and really taking a step back to think of what we are evolving into as a whole. More frightening is the sheer power of brainwashing and the power of the little people you thought were insignificant such as waiters and bus drivers and policemen. The little people who work so that your life runs smoothly.

I really liked the twist as well. I never saw it coming. 4.5 stars! If you haven't watched it, you'd better go grab it man. No wonder it's a classic. Like. Wow! -thinks of Tan Long impersonating Debra Wilson impersonating Oprah-

Anyway, sadly for me, it didn't rain. So I didn't manage to get my swimming trip. Pretty much spent my day watching movies and eating egg sandwiches which I toasted in my pan. I found it pretty amusing that I was toasting on a pan. So cool! Hahas. Don't mind me. I love the occasional egg sandwich. It's just so tasty! And the egg has to be scrambled egg, not hard-boiled then diced. Those suck!

Recently, I've found myself becoming more inclined towards Business news and the Iraq war. Am I finally growing up? Hahas. The credit crisis is quite a frightening thing. Especially when all you hear is analysts saying that our economy is sound and will not go into a recession. Kinda makes you think if they're just preventing panic selling doesn't it? But then again, I think the worst is over, with Bernanke raising the fed rate, it seems like everything is slowly bouncing back. STI is up 49.41 points today! That's good news for us! I think the other markets are in the green too. So more hooray!

Okae, I must be crazy. Was I reporting financial news?

Yesterday saw Bush addressing veterans about staying the course in the 2nd Gulf War. (What's new?) I agree that they cannot pull out lah.. Not very responsible. But it's really American lives vs Iraqi lives isn't it? Sectarian violence is the shit. To be brutally honest, I think Iraq is becoming boring for everyone after 4 years. War was exciting when everyone believed in it, and when things were moving.. But it seems like Bush is in a quagmire and a really stale stagnant one. One word: sian. LPPL.

Sorry.. I just have this inexplicable desire to type alot suddenly. Product of ultimate boredom, no doubt.

Change of topic. Want to know a secret about me? I really wanted to be a musician. Not necessarily a commercial money earning one, but just someone who can play his piano, sing his songs and be very contented with being able to do that. Unfortunately, I'm also a person with a hidden and selective esteem issue. I'm so convinced that I won't be able to play well that I don't. See the vicious cycle? I think that I sing badly too becausee people say I sing badly. How loseristic is that? Where is that streak of (pardon the language) "fuck off, I lead my own life!!"?

And so we all live on without really thinking how we are leading this life. We blunder on, doing things we have to do. Serve NS, study, work in Fuji Xerox, sit at home blogging and rotting. What would I say when I read this next year, 5 years later, ten years on? Would I still be like this? I hope not.

Yet there's something beautiful in each moment. I was just commenting that I realised how much I loved JC life. Only now. How crappily stupid is that? Too late. But hey, that's the beauty of it all. Like I once wrote, "Memories are not things that we can lock in pictures. They stay in our heads and eat at us." But hey, without knowing the our past, how can we face our future with conviction?

Okae, I should get back to my Qiu Lian Ban Mian.

Remember the booby zi cah auntie at S11?

You Had Me At Hello.

I am so going to run down to HMV to buy Jerry Maguire! I am in need of some feel good movie in my life. Hahas.

Haix. I am so love-crazed.

I stare at the world through a window; it is not real to me.

These little moments I have out here are precious, yet spent to discover that what I have lost. How does one hold on to little specks of sand that wait for the next gap in your fingers to escape?

I worry to think that all is lost. I try not to. Yet, what is the assurance otherwise?

I don't know what this feeling is, but it's not a nice one.. I need a break.

Idealistic.

After 8 weeks in BSLC and talking to my bunk mates for so long, I've realised that I am perhaps naive in their eyes.

We had a long chit-chat yesterday, and I can't help but notice that I am really idealistic. I just am not inclined towards thinking badly of others, I guess.

I don't believe that I should change what I am doing because someone else doesn't like it, or disagrees with it. And I don't blame others for having different views from me either. As long as you believe strongly enough that what you are doing is right, you should not be swayed by anything!

The one thing I cannot understand is why people cannot live peacefully with each other, but have to come up with theories as to who dislikes who. Is that not childish at our age? I thought such things only happens in primary schools. Guess I was wrong! Army has such shit too. And the worst thing is that no one wants to do anything about it. Hm.

So is it good that I think better of others, or is it just me being stupid? I think I will just keep being stupid in this case. I'd feel better.

Fuel for the Long Haul.

It was hectic the past 2 days ...

:: Lunch with Pamela. (22/3)

Well, we initially planned lunch at Newton Circus. I didn't know that it is barely open for lunch. I should have known! I only ever go there at night.

So anyway, we went all the way there, only to realise that it's closed, mostly. So we made our way to Novena Square.

Wah.. it was the first time I went to Velocity. Pretty boring really.. Feels really small and dead. I guess the crowd just haven't gotten in there yet. But imagine a shopping mall with only sports shops. Pretty boring ain't it?

We spent some time walking around, with Pamela telling me mostly about her newly born cousin. Hahas.. Somehow Pamela always has a way of making me feel un-awkward. No silences. =)

We eventually found this Korean restaurant at Square 2 and decided to eat there. OMG. The food there is supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! We were actually waiting for something bad to enter our palate, but nothing was bad! A set meal only costs about $8 - $10, and they give you free appetisers such as kimchi, preserved vegetables, pumpkin porridge, etc. And they all taste great. This coming from a guy who does NOT like kimchi! Man!

You can find this shop at the Korean floor of Square 2. If I'm not wrong, it's the 3rd floor. Drop me an email to tell me that you found it delicious okae? (Okae, I'm imagining I have a Xiaxue/Mr Brown/Mr Miyagi/any-other-famous-blogger sized reading crowd here)


We later on went to visit Kayne at Thompson Medical Centre. HE IS SO CUTE! But I felt quite awkward amongst aunties and uncles I didn't really know, so I couldn't exactly gush out right there. Hahas.. And Norman and Elise are super cute too! Like hyper. I would want kids like them. So free and so energetic. Ahhhhhhhhhh!! I suddenly want kids. Hahas.

Man, I just thought of the cutest yet perhaps unromantic proposal: Will you be the mother of my children? Girls would probably cringe about now.

So anyway, I had to leave when Kayne's mum had to breastfeed him. HMM...

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:: BBQ at Rich's. (22/3 - 23/3)

I don't particularly like BBQs. It's too much smoke and uncooked food for me. But this barbeque was nice. Nice in a homely sense of the word. We had Ivan, Rich, Tan Long, Enqing, Chow, Liansheng, WOO CHIAO (like never seen him since aeons ago!!) and Esther (Rich's sister).

I must say, Esther and Liansheng can really barbeque well. I tried and I burnt everything. Hahas..

Anyways, it was the usual stayover at Rich's house thang. We played Ivan's PS most of the time, and then we played DotA too, and Taboo! Check out Rich's blog entry for our hilarious answers to weird questions. =)

Let me give you a sample..

Rich: um, um, anal what? anal what?
Teck Heng: anal mountain high enough?
Answer: probe

It was Chow's and Tan Long's birthdays, by the way.. Strange that no big deal was made out of it. We had no cake or anything, only the big bottle of Absolut Vodka which Chow brought from his chalet and no one really drank. It's like 40% alcohol. Would YOU drink it?

Well well, we later went on to eat chicken rice for lunch at a supposedly famous stall when we got sufficiently awake.. It's not really good. Hmm.

Then DotA! again, where I got totally thrashed by Tan Long. Gee. It's super imbar with Tan Long around. Haix. Don't think I would be able to get as good as him. But hey, I'm proud of my Enchantress. Hahas..

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:: Dinner with Jamie, Alicia and Bee (23/3)



Jamie decided to treat me to dinner to make up for all the pang-sehs, so we got Ali and Bee too. Too bad MK couldn't make it. I really wanted to see her. Hmm.

So anyway, I was quite happy to see Jamie too. But she was her usual self larh. Nothing special. A bit tired-looking though. Those black-eyes, are really black!

We met at Dhoby Ghaut, and took an eternity deciding on what to eat. Ended up watching a bouldering competition outside. I totally feel like learning rock climbing now! If only I were not enslaved to our great nation. Oh well, I'm not complaining. Just pondering about the possibilities if life were different.

Anyways, after the girls had enough boy-ogling time, we went on to Sakae for a party set. It's amazing how that little about of sushi can satisfy me everytime.. But this Sakae was really quite bad. Their sushi fell off before it reached the mouth. It would just disintegrate by the time it lands on the shoyu and wasabe. Irks!

It was nice catching up with the girls though.. Look at some of the pictures we took! =) Jamie wants to go to Australia for further education, and Bee and Ali were basically discussing how to spell ophthalmology. I was bored enough for a while to remember that I was going to SISPEC, bringing a tinge of sadness to my eyes. I didn't know that bothered me until then. Hmm.

THANKS JAMIE FOR TREATING ME TO DINNER!

After dinner we basically walked around PS aimlessly looking at little trinkets and stuff. There was this shop called Made With Love that really caught my eye. I actually saw it a couple of months ago, but forgot about it. Man, I wish I could do all those scrappings too without coming off as being too gay. They are really pretty you know.. I'm amazed at the sheer number of scrappings and creative photo albums they have made.

If you ever go to Plaza Singapura, you MUST go there. It's on level 3.

We later went on to the gratuitous deed of eating 50c ice-cream on my treat. Ahh.. So heartwarming. Hahas.. Well, at least until I had to rush off for Mr Bean's Holiday!

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:: Mr Bean's Holiday (23/3)

Tan Long decided to have some section/clique movie thing, so we went watching Mr Bean without knowing that his section mates would be there. HMMM..

The movie was really funny and whimsical, I would say. But Ivan didn't seem to like it. I can see why.. It was a little forced, I guess, and it left us with nothing much, except that we watched a Mr Bean movie. But hey, some of the scenes were really good.. Like when Mr Bean was miming a song, and when the video was playing at the end..

They filmed the whole scene in France on purpose so that Bean would not talk, I think. True to the Bean spirit, he did lotsa crazy things. Hahas.. Go watch it. But on DVD.

3 Stars!

Well.. That ends my very hectic 2 days.. WAH. Finally. Okae.. I have to faster post. My battery running low le. Till next time! Auf Wiedersehen!

虚惊

My uncle just scared me by typing a message in CAPS about my grandma shifting hospital to AMK.

I know about it already, but it's heart-stopping to get an sms with the word GRANDMA as the first word in capital letters. Gosh. My heart literally skipped a beat.

Thank God nothing is the matter.

enlarged balls?

Take a look at AussieBum's loading animation! It looks really lewd. Kinda fun actually. Hahas..