HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHER!

Cher is like the most zai kayaking coach I've seen, mainly because he's my only kayaking coach. Hahas.. We bought a Durian Fudge Cake (ewwww....) and a bottle a beer for him. It was quite hilarious because we actually forgot to get a lighter. So he blew a candle imaginarily. Lols.

It was really good to go back for training after so long. It really feels like I'm old, now that I am labelled a "J4". Like. Man. And I think both Chai Kee and I agree that we are too old to comprehend the little things that the juniors do. Hahas.. They are so carefree! Like abusing their lives because they have so much time and they are not tied down by work. Their minds are not numb and immotive yet.

I think I am going to make training a weekly thing. Hmmm.

.~^. $ .^~.

Oh me oh me! The bike repair cost is getting very very high. Argh. I think I will be very very poor for the next 3 weeks. 600 freaking dollars! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

VERY VERY SIAN.

千山万水

周杰倫出了新歌！他是为了奥运而写了这一首《千山万水》。请慢慢欣赏！



这过去的一个星期来我一直在为工作而忙碌着，没什么时间在部落各里写些什么，在此对我的朋友门说一声sorry!　如果你觉得我没有怎么理你也不要太在意，因为我真的真的很忙。现在我忐忑的心情平复了才恍然发现没有处理的事情还很多，又有audit要来调查，真是有点手忙脚乱···

当然，除了工作，还有很多事情。比如说我的脚踏车被弄坏的例子。原本借给Ken骑回CMTL拿钥匙，他却借给别人来骑，害到我的frame坏了。现在要换一个好的aluminium　frame要五百块！心好痛啊！我也不想逼Ken还那笔钱，因为我知道数目很高，也不能说完全是他的错···只好suck　thumb咯！

I also watched What Happened in Las Vegas with Zhimin and Jiaming today after meeting up with them at Sembawang Camp. I was there for the Supply Workplan Seminar and thought I might as well catch up on old times with them. Turns out that quite a number of them work in 1st Bn! It seems like Ken and I are the only two people who are chucked into a forgotten outpost called MHC. It's not fun when you feel like you are the only 2nd Left in the whole Div doing work only you know how to do.

Anyways, I'm glad I have leave for tomorrow. At least that means that I can rest a little bit. Hahas. Looking forward to the weekend!

birthday buzz...

I am freaking 20! That makes me not a boy, not yet a man. No Yang Tze movies yet! Urgh. Lols.

My birthday kinda started with a lot of smses.. which I am thankful for. Wah.. I was about to sleep then suddenly all the smses started coming and all.. Thanks to all you guys and girls who sent me smses yeah? I feel so loved =)

Anyways, I spent my birthday playing mahjong for the most part, and then eating zi cha at Chong Pang. And feeling quite pissed off because my sister was so lazy. Like. Argh! But then I decided to be happy since it was my birthday, see?

Then today I went to buy myself a birthday present! So now I have two things off my wishlist. I got my W910i from Mum, and I got a sling bag from myself! How cool is that? I'll leave the rest of the things to a sugar mummy who might take interest in me. LOL.

Anyways, really thanks to all who remembered my birthday, even those who got reminded by facebook and friendster. Hehs.. I really want to go watch Liao Zhai now, so I guess I'd leave blogging to when I am more emo =)

Isaiah 40:31

Right at this moment I'm thinking how strong the human spirit is. Just maybe two weeks ago I was feeling really really down because of something that happened at work, and now I feel like I have more or less recovered from it. It's not like that problem has disappeared. In fact, it's probably going to get a lot worse from now on... but I feel like I have to strength to fight whatever is going to come my way.

I don't know if it's a type of denial, an escapism from the gigantic weight that is about to fall - or have already fallen - on me. I guess I would have to wait to see if I crack to find that out.

It was through this ordeal too that I managed to test my social safety net. I must say, it wasn't much of a social net. Before you go away thinking that my friends are superficial and inconsiderate folk, let me emphasise that the failure of the net is solely my fault. I've come to realise that I'm one who would withdraw when shit happens. I like to sleep it off, cry to myself, scream silently in my heart until it goes away. Or forever stab myself if the issue never ever resolves (thinks longstanding one-sided something).

I have also come to realise that my "clan" as Pamela puts it, is actually more of a 'meet and play' sort of clique than a 'hey sista let's solve this bitch togetha' sort of clique. We never ever mentioned it, nor was there much of an event big enough for us to notice it, but hey, we all know I guess. Take the example of The Great Withdrawal of Astro back in JC days. Or even the example of how we still don't know who ______ is. Or the example of how Astro is not talking now. Maybe it's because we are not girls.

So anyways, I want to thank Jamie for calling a few times (and trying to call a lot of times) and Tan Long for picking up my call that day where I half-cried a little... and of course, Pamela, who doesn't know the story but allows me to sms like nothing is wrong. Hey, you may not know that what you did helped, but it did. So thank you. And of course, thanks God for Holy Spirit touch me. No really. Thank God because I know this peace that I have does not come from anyone else but from Him and the Holy Spirit who comforts me.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I know I will face it like how a toilet bowl faces shit. I will flush it outta my system! Bring it on, asshole!