Looking at you through the tube.

I was kinda watching Wanda Sykes as recommended by Tan Long, and eventually got to Kathy Griffin, and then Oprah and then Ellen and then Oprah again on Youtube.. and I found this really sweet voice of Esmee Denters. It's almost diabetic, the saccharine quality..

I wonder if JEDIT started a YouTube channel, we would be as famous as all these famous YouTubers. Hmm.. We played with this idea since the end of JC days, but I think we never really got about doing it. Now we are just old unfunny people with the hay chucked outta our days. It sucks to feel old! I think it's the non-exercise talking. Get off your ass fatass!

Anyways, do go listen to her. I especially liked Like A Star and of course, this video, Stop and Stare by One Republic. Yeah, you go Netherlander!

> Esmee Denter's website.

Personality Quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I got this quiz off Pamela's blog. We are either very alike, or the quiz is totally bogus. But hey, it's quite true that I'm the independent sort and tend to be very serious about love ;) And yes, I do like determined and girls with a mind of their own. Hm.

More Fun! QM Branch Cohesion.

It's one day after Labour Day, and one day before the weekend. I came up with this brilliant idea to have our branch cohesion today so that we can siam going to work. Woohoo!

The men have been getting more sian since RQ got out of action. So I thought this would be a good idea to cheer them up and get Rainer to familiarise himself with the platoon again. The idea of the day was to have a day of watery fun at Wow Wow Wet followed with some good food before we fall out for the day so that they can enjoy the long weekend.



And so we met at Pasir Ris at 9AM in the morning and had our breakfast at White Sands Mac. I tried the new McGriddles. Hmm.. It was basically just the regular SME dipped in maple syrup. Not bad... but not good either. I also learnt one thing about my boss. He doesn't drink coffee! That's quite amazing, because RQ is a coffee addict and me, I loooovvvveeee a Venti Mocha Frappucino.

The people were generally late, and I was starting to feel quite uncomfortable because boss kept asking me where everyone was. Hmm.. A single cohesion day is the product of many man hours of planning and admin work you know. Imagine the AI I had to do, and RAWR I had to complete before we could all go out. Bleh.. Now appreciate the times you go out with your friends without having to consider the possibility that you might get dehydrated along the way, or get into an accident because you didn't have 7 hours of sleep. Man!

Anyways, we finally got to Wow Wow Wet after we finished our breakfast, only to find out that it was closed.............



SAD!!!!! Ruzaidi didn't tell me that the place wouldn't be open until 1PM!! In fact he said it would be open lorh! WTH. Like that how do we go in to enjoy the sun and water?! With my newly imbued camera phone, I immediately gathered the whole platoon so that we can cam whore so that I can whine here. WHINE!!!


With that huge disappointment and my hours of planning down the gutter, we decided to head over to Princess for Iron Man. It was quite funny because 5 of us had to squeeze into CCO's car. I was thinking of how hilarious it would be if you kept seeing people coming out of the car. LOL. Anyways, Princess was only $7! That meant $98 flying out of my bank =/ The moviewwas quite good I guess.. but there were places in it where I almost fell asleep. 3 stars! That's the max I'd give it.

The day ended with makan at Pizza Hut. We celebrated Michael Nicholas' birthday too.. Muhammad wanted to smash cake into him, but we didn't manage to do that in the end =( It would have been fun! But hey, I guess it was fun enough. Nicholas got a nice peppermint chocolate cake and we got a wholesome meal filled with calories. Yayness!

fun finally!

The gang finally found this brilliant opportunity of a Labour Day holiday to hang out at Tan Long's house! It was a good break from all the stress at work. The mahjong helped a great deal with the relief =)

Chow En Ping Chih! Pong! Hu!

I went over right after a G4 branch farewell dinner for Mr Lim and David. Mr Lim would be leaving for ROC as messing warrant and David, of course, has gone over to the brigade side as DYS4. The steamboat was really good! I didn't know Whampoa had such good steamboat even though church is so near and we went there twice. Hmm.. Look at us enjoying the food!


G4 Branch having a heck of a time makaning. Always makaning =)

I managed to be the big winner at mahjong that night. Hehs.. but I'm not really sure I'd be able to get my money back from chow. Seems like he's in some kinda financial trouble. Just tell me if you need any help yeah? I will try with my limited allowance. Hahas..

Anyways, I think the main reason we were at Tan Long's house was to celebrate Jun Yuan and my birthday. It was quite funny seeing Tan Long whisper whisper to the others pretending we were not gonna know, and putting the birthday cake in the freezer which we will definitely open to get ice. Lols.. Strangely, I wasn't particularly excited about my birthday. Hmmm.. I guess it wasn't how I envisioned it. But thanks for the book guys! I totally need to learn how to bed girls. Hahahas.


Clockwise from Left: Enqing, Wei Ping, Rich, Me! And Rich being squashed by Enqing's hand.

As you can see, I also had lots of fun with my new camera phone! Mum bought me the W910i I wanted. So now I have to same phone as a lot of people i.e. Pamela and Zhimin. The camera is really not bad in good lighting... At least I look thin in the photos. Hahas..

We had lunch together after the stay-over at the usual Bedok Chicken Rice place. See how we managed to totally eradicate two whole chickens?! It was kinda freaky. No wonder I'm putting on weight!


Empty plates after Chicken Rice lunch


Rich's pose is so Xiaxue! And Ivan's acting cool.

And of course, after lunch we had a DotA session at the Kao Peh Receptionist Club where the person manning the counter has a perpetual stick stuck up his ass. It was totally close man, the match. Didn't think I farmed well though. One of the worser AM matches I played =/ Yes yes, I know I'm not good at DotA...


Kao Peh Receptionist Club Lan Shop

And it ended with the DotA and with me feeling really queasy. Urgh. It must have been the lack of water and not sleeping well. I think I really am getting old before I've really had enough fun. Bleh!

prick of blood spreading.

The past week has been one of ups and downs. The week before that was much worse, given all the uncertainty. I have come to realise that I'm not one who is privy with giving details to my sources of pain, especially not when the magnitude of the hurt is large enough.

There are just some people in different stages in your life that you can never conceive living without. It might be the form teacher during primary school, or that best friend when you were in secondary school. It could be anyone. Yet sometimes God tests us in that way, I guess. It's not easy.. in fact, it's very very difficult. It's hard for me to put all these into words because I haven't been writing about what I feel for a long time now. There's just been too much curtains decorating this window to my soul.

Suffice to say, everything is at least more peaceful now. I have come to terms with what I have to take on now, and I can face it. I won't dare say things are better now though. Because they aren't. I could definitely live without all of these. It's totally crappy. I can't begin to describe how bad it has been for me. It's like reliving moments years ago when I saw someone close just slipping away without the ability to do anything to stop it. It makes me want to scream stop it! It makes me want to tell everyone that hey, I love you, so please don't disappear okae?

I should just convince myself that I'm just being emo. I'm just being emo.