streamlining.

Seems like it's been a long time since I last blogged! Feels like it, at least...

Well.. a lot has changed actually... For one, I finally sorted out in my brain certain things, and certain ways of thinking. Right now, I must say I'm a little bored, and really don't know what to do with my life, now that I have no object of obsession. It's hard lah. You don't just stop these things.

Anyways, my nose is still unsmelling. I told ma that I'm okae already though... don't want her to worry about me. Guess I'd have to find some way to deal with it. There's just a lil fear at the back of my mind that I would just die of an aneurysm some day like what happened to Ms Tan..... choi!

Anyways, listen to this::

柠檬草的味道
歌手：蔡依林

他们猜我们后来　有没有再见
离席了　才会晓得怀念
突然我记起你的脸　那触动依然像昨天
对自己　我终於也证实某一点
是不是　回忆就是淡淡柠檬草
心酸里　又有芳香的味道
曾以为你是全世界　但那天已经好遥远
绕一圈　我才发现我有更远地平线

我们都没错　只是不适合　
我要的　我现在才懂得
快乐是我的　不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责

毕竟用尽了力气　也未必如愿
总是要　过去以后才了解
突然我记起你的脸　爱不爱不过一念之间
绕一圈　今天的我能和昨天面对面

我们都没错　只是不适合
亲爱的　我当时不懂得
选择是我的　不是你给的
明天自己负责

给昨天的我　一个拥抱　
曾经她不知如何是好
若我们再见　我会微笑
谢谢你　谢谢你　
我尝过爱的好

我们都没错　只是不适合　
我要的　我现在才懂得
快乐是　我的不是你给的　
寂寞要自己负责
我要的　我现在才懂得　
选择是我的　不是你给的
幸福要自己负责
错过的请你把握

A short short one before I go do my night things!

It's mum's birthday tomorrow! It so happens to be the day I have been asked to lead worship for youth group too.. You know, somewhere inside I know I am supposed to be scared and worried to death about the prospect of this, but I don't feel anything.. {=_= } It's like sitting on a rollercoaster expecting to be scared only to feel nothing. Bleah...

Anyway, tomorrow would be a super busy day for me. It's mum's birthday, meaning we have to shop for a handbag/handphone/both for her. Ahh! Hole in my pants. It burnses! '

It's also go-kallang-and-kayak-with-krt! day. Hahas.. I'm so looking forward, even though I am sick and I totally should not be exerting and staying out in the sun for so long. Aiyah.. nevermind lah hor? You only live once... but that means you die once too. hmm.

Then there's youth group, then there's dinner at Jumbo. Argh. I WANT TO DIET TO CUT THE FREAKIN' TYRE FROM MY FREAKIN' BELLY!

Alright. Hope I survive tomorrow.

Diid I mention that 2LT Yong Chiang treated us to food today? Quite nice lah. At least he's trying to be nice. Hohoho... whether it works... I also don't know.

Till next time! Vanakum!

虽然我看起来若无其事，但我真的开始有点怕了。没有心跳加速的感觉，也不会打冷颤···　只有一种莫名的忧虑。

我已经有五个星期没闻到东西了。今天在红星吃的点心似乎一点味道也没有。在台湾的鸡扒、臭豆腐，都闻不出端倪。

右眼也有７个礼拜了吧？在凌晨起来的时候眼睛痛得开不了，眼泪不止。昨天的视线还有点模糊···

是我自己吓自己吗？

除此之外老豆和婆婆都进了医院... 本来还以为回国之后能开始为４２KM的马拉松训练。现在好像好难喔···　天也不作美，整天都在下雨。咳！

希望一切会有好的结果吧。我真的需要去看看医生···　但没有钱！更没有时间。好stressed喔！神，让一切平复下来吧！拜托了！

I AM BACK!

Hello hello! I'm back.

It seems like I've missed Singapore more that it has missed me. Who am I kidding? Who would miss me eh? You know, sometimes such small little things really matter to me. So thank you, Gracia, for missing me. And it's okae that I'm not missed at all - that I wasn't even beeping in that radar. I should just move on from liking a person who has no clue at all that I do.

Anyways, STAGEBEND was fun. Like super duper fun. If I were in a better mood, I'd tell you all about Shilin, Wu Fen Pu, Xi Men Ding, Dong Guan and all the amazing theme parks we went to... but maybe not now. I feel like I need to sleep. Tomorrow okae? Don't worry, I'll spill the beans. Hahas.

Alright. Goodnight.