Insomnia.

I got hooked on this song by sitting too much on Lion's car. It has a good beat and groove to it. It's a Korean version of David Craig's Insomnia, by the way.

The end of the road.

I just got home from visiting RQ at NUH. I must say I didn't prepare myself for it to be this bad. She could not talk or move except for blinking and some twitching of her fingers. It's supposedly the effect of the cancer spreading to her brain and the fluids stuck up there.

I know she must have recognised me because I gave her the "zoh si mi?" look, and she had the "ah Sir" look in her eyes. She was looking right into my eyes. For a moment I couldn't look back because I was afraid I will start tearing. The last thing I want is for her to feel sad for me, so I held back as much as I could. I didn't want to be melodramatic in front of her relatives either...

It was later when I was at the airport sending Aaron Derrick back to Dubai when I thought, "Good people don't do good so that they can live long lives." I guess the brighter a candle burns, the faster it extinguishes. But it's light would have impacted so many others, like the spreading of a spark into a wildfire, uncontrollable and mighty. I know and am glad I was one of them.

Still, I pray for miracles to happen. I know God has a greater plan.

Busy busy..

My schedule is crazy.

03.04.09 (Fri) SPRING EDS Assessment
07.04.09 (Tue) Driving TP Test (gasp!)
08.04.09 (Wed) SMU Law Interview
10.04.09 (Fri) Good Friday Picnic

Now the only hurdle to cross is asking my boss for leave -_-

Grey.

Do you have days when you wake up feeling slightly melancholic, just enough to make the sky feel grey without inhibiting your ability to act like nothing is wrong throughout the day?

But nothing is wrong. It's just a feeling that something is. That there's something to be sad about.

I must be listening to too much Jay Chou..

Newfound happiness.

asher.

That's my new name! It means "happiness" in Hebrew and is the name of the 8th son of Jacob. It takes some getting used to, because I still love Dezhi sooooo much! (doesn't everyone? haha)