Guest Blog // Liansheng

I bring you the totally uncensored guest blogger, Liansheng!!!

Somehow, it feels really weird to be guest blogging. I guess, this is what I call 'in desperate times, we call for desperate measures'. I am kind of suffering from this emotional low, or the classy-er people would say 'nadir', due to many stuff [my GP tutor will kill me for saying this excessively] accumulating throughout the course of my oh-so-important Advanced Level Examinations. While some are left with the simple task of shading ovals which would be over tomorrow, I still have a daunting 3 hour paper waiting for me on Friday. However, this ain't my point tonight. I have chosen to blog in mr suan's blog cause I am attention-seeking or rather, I see that blogging in a closed personal space is not longer therapeutic for me. Haha, actually it is, but well, you know, I need to share some thoughts with people at times to show my presence! Ah, this explanation ain't working. I just felt like it, ok? Haha. Pardon me for my randomness.

Well, isn't it true that in life, we are constantly filled with these kind of randomness, these kind of out-of-the-blue feelings that I think aren't that bad, cause they make me think a lot, and reassesses my self-identity or at least my real thoughts about the surroundings. I still remember how I was having this terrible feeling, which is still lingering. It somehow stemmed from my frustration with studying cause, really, don't you think having an exam for 1 whole month is so mentally tiring? Well this terrible feeling just came from a terrible MSN conversation which happened last night. [Oh please, I hope the person in question doesn't pop over and stumble upon mr suan's site and render me speechless with his questions after reading what I have to say] Haha.

Basically, I've got to start off by saying that MSN is a brilliant thing. It creates illusions that somehow give more depth and feel to someone who probably isn't so in real life. Don't you feel the same way? Those emoticons and phrases that people use don't necessary reflect what they are in nature, but it somehow blinds your impression and jazz up his image. Haha, you can disagree, but in my opinion, I do think so. [Perhaps it's just that I have met quite a couple of this kind of people.]

Honestly, I had a boring conversation last night. Not the usual one-worded replies, but terribly insensitive conversation that tried so hard to be politically correct, it discounted all the friendship that was left between the two of us. He was trying to whine about his papers, but at the same time, he was trying not to. Confused? I was too. He was saying that he deserved this and that, but at the same time, tried to be politically correct by saying that oh, different people have different expectations, so yada yada. Come on, both of us were having a horrible bout of time that night, so why can't we just give this whole thing a skip and move on to something else? Well, somehow, the topic never shifted, and the whole focus on academia just totally killed me. My whole point is, I thought we were good friends, yet, at times, there are just thoughts occurring over and over again, just as if it was all wrong from the start. Darn, I sound like some kind of girl, having being jilted. In conclusion, I just need an outlet to let all this shit out, and tadah, mr suan kindly let me grace his blog (with my words). Don't you think some of our friends don't really make us feel good, yet at the same time, we are so bent on continuing this friendship?

Life is weird. Haha. Anyway, on a sidenote, I am kind of getting over this thing. In fact, it has never really hit me hard, I just wanted to type it out and reason it through logically. Whatever it is, i guess I am done with my content for this entry. Anyway, couple of music to look out for:

1. Faith Yang's Nu Jue [Duchess]

2. Fantasia Barrino

For those uninitiated, Faith Yang is this brilliant indie-chick belting out chinese songs that are filled with emotions, and she recently released her 4th album after 5 years of sabbatical. She really wanted to give up 5 years ago, but somehow, she persisted and came out with this current album which I think rocks. The cover, and singles released all enthralled me to the maximum, and it's been such a long time someone so indie gave me much to be thrilled about. Watch out for this feisty girl.

As for Fantasia Barrino, many would probably remember her as this screaming Americal Idol winner, but I thought her album [Free Yourself] gave me much inspiration while I was thinking about life and its what's-not. Tracks to look out for include 'Always on my mind', 'free yourself', 'ain't gonna beg you' and 'This is me'.

Enjoy.

Liansheng