i guess there is no other way.

i have got to become a fucker.

bloody stinky cheesebuns...

the last week.

Tomorrow would mark the first day of OFFICIAL WORK. That means no help from upper study. That means taking over that mountain of work on my own! I feel like I know how to do some of the stuff, but seems like there are alot more things I do not know. Man..

The last week was kind of stressful, because my upper study is kind of depressive... He slides into sudden silences and moody expressions. Really quite scary. I figured since everyone said I was emo, I would have been able to handle another emo person. But wah.. I have finally seen the true face of EMO.

Last week was also the week that MAJ Jason Tan passed away. Sometimes life is just unpredictable like that. We just went to Taiwan with him 2 months ago, and now he's gone. And he was really a Mr Nice Guy. I guess it's true that good men die young. Haix.

I signed for my Basic Theory Test, by the way... but I have to wait till March to take it. But it's really quite sad that I don't have the money to buy a carrr... Haix.... Maybe I should really go for a bike. Should I?

Aiyah.. See first lah

day one at work.

The first real day at work was pretty fruitful. We've started the Handing Over/Taking Over process, and I feel like I am getting to know my men better.

You know, a few days back I prayed to God about getting to know my men better right before I went to work. I was thinking that I really needed to know them and for them to get to know me because I am the kind of person who doesn't really know how to talk cock.

Just nice that day both the RQ and QM were on leave and off, and the platoon didn't have much to do. I got a chance to sit them down to have a chit-chat session to find out about their families and all. Quite alright lah.. At least it was a start. =) Thank God!

I now only hate myself for feeling so anti-social and not knowing how to initiate conversations and to introduce myself. I'm just freaked out about talking to others I don't know. Hmm. Help me Lord! If even that can be overcomed, I think I've pretty much nailed the person aspect of being a QM.

Hope that tomorrow would be a better day!

tickle me emo.

There are rare times when I feel crap lonely. And somehow everyone ignores me at such points of time. It's like you have something you feel like saying yet have no one to say to. Maybe that's why I like to go out more than stay home.. It feels better to be around people and to be talking than to be stoning at home and waiting for things to happen.

You know, maybe I'm not a very good friend at all.. I'm quite terrible at keeping friends I think. I get too jaded and tired too easily. Haix. Emo again. This means that I should be sleeping ba........

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Hey hey hey!! OMG it's 2008!

Here's wishing everyone a Happy New Year ahead! Those studying, study hard. Those working (like me =( ) Work hard!! Those just lazing around.. well. Get your arse off the chair and go find some productive thing to do!

I'm actually playing mahjong at Pam's. Hahas.. Quite fun eh... I shall get back to win more chips!