Just Do It

I wanted to blog about this, then I didn't want to. Then I thought I had to, because this is important. So, I'm just doing it.

Isn't it an amazing coincidence that I managed to find this advertisement online with a cross? How totally apt. Well, yes, I'm gonna be talking God.

You see, I bought this book, Chasing Daylight by Erwin Raphael McManus today. It's a book about seizing the moment, a book about "a call to live a life of blazing urgency". And this book really really spoke to me.

I've mentioned before that for the longest time, I had this complex that told me that others were better than me, and that I probably wouldn't be able to do much myself. I probably wouldn't be able to be a good keyboardist, for example. Well, that was the reason why I was drawn to this book. Because in the synopsis wrote, "We all have dreams... Why, then, do some of us realise our dreams and advance forward while others watch timidly from a distance and hope for a break?". Then I realised what it really was. Timidity.

What is stopping me from doing what I wanted to do? Something at the back of my head saying that maybe God doesn't want me to do this. Then the book read, "When we are passionate about God, we can trust our passions" (Psalms 37:4). And I was like, "wow. I have to buy this book." Later I learnt that even if this isn't what God wanted me to do, I'd be just making a mistake, which is okay. Because God would still have a plan for me, and nothing I can do will derail that, as long as I am in Him.

So far, there has been a revelation and spiritual release to me that I should Just Do It. Do whatever that I think is the right thing to do - that is after consideration. Because God puts thoughts and ideas in our heads for a reason. If it has come to you, perhaps it is because God wants you to act it out.

And so I did. I asked Tan Long and Chow if they would like to start a cell together because I felt it would benefit all of us, and I asked them to pray about it so that it wouldn't just be impulse on my part. I'm still waiting to hear the good news!

What is the Spirit saying to you today? Are you even aware of it? We need to realise when the Holy Spirit is speaking, and act upon it.

When you do a double-take in your mind next time, think. What is the best thing to do? From right and right, what is righter? And choose to do what you thought about. Act. Because you only live once. And God wants you to live life to the full (John 10:10) with the choices you have.

Church.

This is the first time in a long time that I have not gone to church. Let's not count the times when I had guard duty, of course..

When I was in KKMC, I loved the people and I loved the ambience. I was passionate about God because He was new to me, like a strange cute thing I suddenly had. But I can't say I knew God. I wrote lots of notes during sermon, yes, but I wasn't really listening to Rev Chiang or Rev Kang. It was a sweet time, when I was young and I had new friends. Fellowship, but in retrospect, perhaps not so much with the presence of God.

Then I came to CCC. I must say I didn't like the people as much here at first. They were too friendly. In an uncomfortable way. But they loved God, they had passion for God. And I caught it along the way. Even though I used to skip church in KKMC, due to any number of reasons including my dad's objections, I began to go to church every Sunday in CCC. It's a strange thing - the encumbrances just disappeared.

As I grew there, I saw that CCC people are warm and kind, even though there are the disapproving looks that I sometimes feel. Where else would I rather be?

I wonder if Dr Khoo would be talking about his friend which he miraculously unhated today, or maybe about LJT, or about suddenly having an insatiable hunger for God's Word. Hahas. And what songs of worship would they be singing? And I wonder what they are having for refreshments!

Hmm. Too bad I have chicken pox.

My True Friend.

I was feeling bored, so I went blog-surfing. And I found this right here. It's really cute, something like an online trac telling you about God. With really good music I would say..

If I am not misinformed due to assumption, (remember, assumption is the mother of all fuck-ups!) it's made by Galvin.

Yeap. Go take a look, whether you are Christian or not.

When God Speaks

While at Youth Group this afternoon, Chee Keen shared on 1 Samuel 3 ...

God speaks to us through
- His Word,
- Clear audible voice,
- Prophetic words,
- People

When God Speaks, we might be UNAWARE of it initially, but later learn to know Him through the instruction and help of leaders and through the gradual deeper knowledge of the Word. We must be willing to listen and be unafraid and sensitive to His spirit.

What God says to us might make us feel UNEASY at times. In the case of Samuel, he was faced with the dilemma of delivering negative news regarding Eli's descendants to him. We are to know that we are given the authority to speak those words unto others when God gives us the Word if it is for edification, rebuking or correction.

Even when God's message does not appeal to us, we should not be UNREACTIVE to God when He speaks but be humble and obey God's Word. In Eli's case, he had a "let it be" attitude toward God's warning which caused judgment to be passed down. If he had interceded for his sons, perhaps they would have been spared through God's mercy.

The story of Samuel also teaches us that we should not discount God on how He can speak to us.

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What was really interesting to me was when Joanna shared the testimony of what God has been doing in her life. She basically said something that was in my heart for a long time.

The realisation that there would be no one in the world who would know me fully except God, and the heartbreak of the knowledge that there would be no one to know me fully previously.

The desperate search for someone to understand me fully made me blog. (hahas!) And when I thought I really did find some soulmate to know me, I was made to realise that I was sadly mistaken.

What a perfect example of God speaking to me through other people! Just a moment after the sharing God showed me the truth of the message. Hahas.. Amazing!

Can't wait to hear more tomorrow!