mr suan rants on.

My brain is thinking in Chinese. Now how did that happpen?! I'm supposed to be lousy in Chinese and A1 in English! It must be too much of Taiwan and Jay Chou... Speaking of which, I still haven't bought his new album! I'm still considering... does Rainbow, and the Longest Movie and Dandelions justify my buying such a happy album? It's so not my taste. Hmm..

Anyways, Commissioning is coming really really soon. It seems like every week we are just waiting for time to pass and to finish doing all the things so that we can just go to OCS and get commissioned. Is this what some meant when they said that most people are just focused on commissioning and forget being officers? I hope I am not such a person. I intend to be an excellent and outstanding QM, for your information!

On the home front, Mum and Sis are still in Taiwan shopping their hearts out, leaving only the three guys at home. I guess if I were still in Primary School this wouldn't be such a bad idea, but now we just avoid each other as much as possible. So my Dad's either watching cable or in his room, my brother is in our room, and I'm in my Mum's room playing Hellgate which I just bought. Oh, did I mention that the game rocks?! Buy it. Seriously. Good RPG, excellent graphics. The leveling is really slow though... Other than that, the items are totally upgradeable which makes it cool, and the skills (I was using an Evoker) were reasonably powerful. BUY BUY! Then we can play together online!

You know, I saw this particular blog while doing guard duty last Sunday, and I suddenly thought to myself, "this is such a sincere blog!" I used to be like that, I guess. I used to really know what I was thinking, and I would just write it out. But somehow that gift seems to have been taken away from me. Now all I ever say are things that I've said. All I ever write are childish longings for things that probably will never ever come to pass. What happened to my mental facility? What happened to my VIEWS? Should I not be more political, or more thought-invoking? Why this numbing whining about everything in the world? See, even that sentence whines. Eww. I am disgusted by myself.

Well. My new philosophy of life is to take things as they come, and to take one day at a time. What's the use worrying about so many things, and thinking so much, and yearning and hoping so much when nothing is really in your control? I am to let God take the reins of my life. I never really understood that even though I kept praying it. I guess it really means to not worry about my life and what will come, but just to trust that God has a better plan for me than I can ever imagine. Hmm. It'd take more faith for me to really fully trust, but I know God will be there for me.

Be positive!!!