Sunday, January 31, 2010

The kind of love that changes you.

It's back to basics again with planning out my life. I am going to start making a timetable and plan out what exactly I will do every single day, and try to stick by it.

That shall be my first step to creating order in my life that has been defined by randomness and taking things as they come.

Why you ask? Because I realise that I can't continue living like that anymore, and that everyone has a plan, and I should too. And because I have more responsibilities now, and I should start stepping up to the plate instead of letting my talents go to waste.

Pray for me yeah! God speed =S

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Spirited Away.

I finally watched Spirited Away today! It was a sudden urge brought on by listening to One Summer's Day.

I can't decide whether I like the story though.. I was reminded of Xiao Qian. A little girl named Sen is spirited away to the nether world where a witch rules over a bathhouse and she manages to survive and eventually escape thanks to Haku. It's a lovely tale, but did not have any particular emphasis on anything, which is strange for a Japanese movie. Normally J-dramas or movies would have a very strong overarching theme. Think Pride, or Long Vacation, etc etc. In fact, I think that's what makes J-dramas better than the sobby Korean dramas.

I loved the music, of course! And ultimately it was really quite a feel good movie. Well, that took up my tutorial-doing time, and that's why I am still awake here, trying to absorb my Financial Accounting notes =S Hopefully I can get everything done by today!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

One Summer's Day by Joe Hisaishi

I have probably posted this video before. I am posting it again because I can't get the music out of my head, and I am actually learning it now..

It is such a pleasure to see Joe Hisaishi play and witness the emotion he infuses into his music!

Enjoy it =)

Edit: I found the version with the song..

Sometimes I find it hard to write exactly how I feel. Before I write something on Facebook, I will think that my brother will probably read it and ask me about it, so I'll think twice.

Before I write on this blog, I will start thinking that everyone else would be reading it and ask me about it, or start thinking them to be things that they are not, and it would be just plain irritating.

I guess this issue has cropped up before, but I was always okay with it because well, I didn't have anything controversial to say. But hey, sometimes people just need to rant without thinking that what I am writing will have potential repercussions.

MERRRR

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Moody.

My mum was complaining about me being careless on the way home because I forgot to put coupons in the car when I went to Grandma's. And she followed up by saying that I should not go for SEP, which really got me riling. Why ask me to go ahead and apply for it, make me go through all the trouble of writing a personal statement and finding out what universities to go, and then tell me that I am too careless to go for it when I finally got it?!

Frankly, I think I just dislike the fact that she's being all naggy all of a sudden when she really didn't care much for the better half of my life. Not that she didn't care for me, just that she was always okay with my comings and goings and I just can't stand the sudden curtailment of freedom. =S

I like to think that I am independent enough to do my own things. Yes, I might be absent-minded at times, and I guess I am not as meticulous as my brother, but hey, I get things done myself, and I have for so long. So what is the deal now? I really don't get it. Tsk tsk.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Sherlock Holmes End Titles.

My blog is too narrow to show this video, but you should really go over to YouTube to view it. It's really good graphic design! Man, how does one ever learn to do that?

Last Night.

I got so tired after reaching the Clubroom yesterday that I basically collapsed on the sofa and slept through the night.

Earlier in the evening, Enqing and I were supposed go out to buy a present for Ivan's birthday celebration on Wednesday. We decided in the end, though, that the farewell and the birthday dinner should be separated and the present should only be given during the farewell, meaning we were suddenly stranded in the PGP carpark thinking what to do.

We decided in the end to go to the Engin canteen for dinner and chit-chat. Throughout the conversation, I can't help but feel that I really am quite lucky =) But anyways, I shall not say anything here, cos it's SIC. =P

So anyways, we went back to Business in the end, and hung out for a while with Ben Cai cos Ben, Jas, Jon and Athena were there. And the rest is pretty much history. I was sorting out the stuff I had to do and then I got so tired that I just slept there. =S I wonder how I managed to get myself so tired. Might be the swim I guess.. And now I have a bonus zit on my face =((

Oh wells, at least I got enough sleep! And now I am back for lectures. Really need to start working out what to do and WORK ON THEM!

Monday, January 18, 2010

My Diet+Exercise Grand Plan and my Hide-In-The-Library-And-Mug Grand Plan officially starts today!

Some tweaks to my diet:
- Koko Krunch for breakfast to prevent myself from eating the expensive and oily Chicken Feuillette from the Biz canteen.
- Eating normal lunch in the canteen without snacks or too much drinks
- Try not to eat dinner/have fruits/eat something with more fibre

Exercise!:
20 laps in the pool

Yes. I shall be a hardworking and enthu kid from now on!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Snapper.

I get random bouts of cravings for a DSLR.

Imagine being able to take photographs like The Sartorialist. Or Chor Seng.

Today's inspiration came from this blog. It's a blog on graphic design. I am sooo loving the photographs!

Heaven, drop me a DSLR please!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Man in the Mirror by Siedah Garrett

This clip was taken from Teck Heng's profile on Facebook. I was hooked by the music playing at the background when Siedah Garrett was talking. Hmm.

Swam.

30 laps.

After talking about it from the first day of school til now, I finally went swimming!

I realised that once you learn how to swim front crawls, it's difficult to stick to just breast-stroke. Somehow I felt very very slow..

Oh, I gave a guy a run for his money though (even though it's free to go into the SRC pool) - he was swimming his front crawl and I was swimming beside him with my breast-stroke and he was trying desperately to get ahead of me. LOL! I secretly love competing with people in the pool. Makes a boring swim fun, don't you think?

Return of the cameraman.

Met up with Chor Seng yesterday! He's back from the States for 2 weeks I think, and he FINALLY decided to meet up with Toinh and I. Hahas..

It's quite amazing how everyone is almost exactly the same, with Toinh and his nonsense and Chor Seng with his physics and current affairs and NBA. Apparently US has been good to him. Man, I think an overseas education is really good exposure =/ Hopefully I get my SEP place!

Anyways, we met at Buona Vista and walked on to Holland V for Crystal Jade, the land of costly peanuts and wet tissues. Did you know that they don't even serve Chinese Tea in pots anymore? What happened to good old virtues of generosity and non-extortion?

We adjourned for dessert after lunch, but Toinh didn't want Frolick and we decided that the Rock Creamery place was too expensive. So we went for the FAMOUS teh peng =) A little too sweet this time I think. Hahas.. But it was still good.

And thus ended our very short gathering. But it was cool to meet up again after so long lah. I hardly get to see Toinh even in NUS lorh. Seems like everyone is high flying and chasing after their own dreams. Makes me feel like I have to start stepping up to my own plate and chase after mine too! Even if I don't have an A*Star scholarship or an MOE scholarship, I must start serving my Parent scholarship and do them proud!!

CAP 5 here I come!

Monday, January 11, 2010

First Day of School.

It's the first day of school! I thought it befitting that I should start off this new beginning with a blog post =)

School started with sending TYl, Haiying (TYL's friend who transferred from SMU) and Claire to school. Traffic was HORRIBLE. I can't imagine that I have to drive to school every freaking day from now on =S Enqing, if you are reading this, I might really need to bunk with you hor!

I was almost immediately arrowed to be a roaming ambassador in MRB when we arrived in school, and I proceeded to spend the entire morning with Karen sitting right at the entrance, waiting to prey on helpless people who need to be brought around.

I managed to spend some time to look at my SEP options too, which was good. I think this semester is going to be very crucial for me to qualify for exchange since most people need a minimum of 4.0 to get places. I think I will still try for it, cross my fingers and pray =X

WISH ME LUCK.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

I am starting to miss my brother. It's in the very small things.

No one to off the light when I am up in my bed.
No one in the room and stirring in his bed when I come home late at night.
No one to complain about how I am using the car too much, or how the car is dirty..

Hopefully Stockholm is not too cold!

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Off to the land of ABBA.

We just sent my bro off at T3.

I am going to miss him, even if he is an asshole most of the time =S

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Okuribito.

I just finished watching a movie called Departures or Okuribito.

It is a story of a cello player who went back to his childhood home when his orchestra got disbanded and ended up being an encoffiner. The story tells of how he grows to respect his job and how his wife begins to see the place of a job that is normally seen as unclean and filthy.

The soundtrack was great, as per most Japanese movies, and what I felt was especially touching was the idea that Death is not the end, but merely a gateway to another world, and how the encoffiner is a facilitator of that journey..

Watch it!

A Wayfarer.

Yet another nonsense poem by Mr Suan.

He walks passing through
Lives in parts, never fully
Understanding or comprehending what
They are in
Entirety.

Attempts at it never
Leads to anything. One is
Changing and evolving never
Deigning definition.

He walks passing through
Tarries never too long
Purposed to be
Forgotten.
Utterly.
Passing.

Monday, January 04, 2010

All parties come to an end.

Holidays are coming to an end. It's time to rev up that engine again and face what is possibly going to be the busiest semester of my university life. =S

There are some things I want to work on this semester and here's just a list to keep them in mind.

1. PULL UP MY FREAKING CAP.
2. Finish the Bizad Club website revamp
3. Be a better DM Director.
4. Win Rag!!
5. Be closer to W instead of just hanging out with Bizad Clubbers
6. Stop zoning out.

Friday, January 01, 2010

Hello 2010!

Happy New Year everyone! To borrow the cliche, in the blink of an eye, another year has passed. 2009 was a tumultuous year of changes for me, and quite frankly, I'm glad it's over. I guess it's only apt at this point of time to revisit some of the things that have passed..

31 Dec 2008. I ORD-ed from Army after returning from Wallaby and passing my IPPT =) I remember feeling how anti-climatic it was. There was no fancy ORD parade, only a signing of papers. I had to sign my own form because RQ was so sick and out of action.

Feb 2009. I joined EDC@SMa as an administrative assistant and stayed there for a good 5 months. I never knew I would work there quite that long. It was fun to know the people there and to be an observer to their politics and to see how people spice up their work lives. Of course, I remember complaining about the boring work or lack thereof. But at the end of it, the memories of working life are fond =) I have Ian to thank for teaching me the ropes and Davin for the friendship and Jessica for advice.

April 2009. 2009 was a year of death for me. RQ died of cancer on 7 Apr 2009, the same day I got my driver's license. She was the mother I never had, the matriarch of the QM Branch.. But as they always say, good men die young. I'd always remember RQ as someone who puts everyone else above herself. Even in her last days, her smses would not betray how serious her condition was..

Ivan's mum also succumbed to cancer around the same time. And my grandmother was critically ill for most of the earlier part of the year. I remember feeling lost and not knowing what to do, lamenting the fragility and unpredictability of life.

July 2009. Orientations start. A blizzard of getting to know new friends. I joined the Sports Camp and Business Freshmen Orientation Camp. Peter Pan and Gu Wa Zai. We were all new to university and everyone brought their own history to the place. I can still remember the first day at the LT feeling how strange everyone were and how diverse we all were.

And the rest is history. School started, I ran for Bizad Club and because the Director of Digital Media & Publicity. A whirlwind of activities and studies.. Neglecting my class because I was always hanging out in the Clubroom. Exams. Results. Fun and disappointment.

Dec 2009. I left my church. I guess it heralds a new start and a new discovery about myself. What do I really believe in? I believe in social justice, in outreach and increasingly about tolerance with respect to giving people the right to choose. That last one might seem random, but I guess a lot of issues come up with Christianity because of the coercive elements of our evangelism.

And that's basically it isn't it? Well, of course there are so many more things.

I am thankful for God and His people for showing me what I should do, for understanding my actions, for guiding me.

I am thankful for new friend and old friends. Thank you for staying with me and bearing my weaknesses. There are times where we think we know each other so well that we'd rather not stand each other, but at the end of the day, I am glad for the friends I have.

I am thankful for my family, even though it is almost impossible to find another family as screwed up as mine. We are totally dysfunctional, but at least I know deep deep down inside, we still love each other.

I am thankful for teachers, and lecturers and tutors and mentors for teaching me.

And I am thankful for you right there reading. Because you changed my life in some way. =)

So goodbye 2009, and hello 2010!
 
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